Random thoughts and ramblings...entry1

I had such big dreams...I was going to be something amazing...someone people would remember for all time...a legend that would withstand the waves of ages and with this great fame I was going to change the world forever...leave a bright light of hope and wisdom that would alter the path of the world and save it from the ever darkening obis it seems determined to spiral toward...such dreams...such beautiful dreams...nothing defined me no one could label me and it was such a powerful feeling to be so sure that every soul I touched would be forever altered by this beautiful gift I was meant to bestow upon the masses...but here I am...just another woman in another small town with a million small problems and no more illusion of grandeur...what happened? How did I fall so far? Why can't I find that girl again who was so completely fearless she was going to save the world...when we are young and all the world stands before us it's easy to picture greatness...it's so much harder to see when the reality of life obscures the view...now I know I may not ever me remembered by the world at large...I may not be a legend...but I'm not ready to stop dreaming...I know I have responsibilities that will make it more difficult to dedicate myself to the betterment of the masses...and I lost a step and so much of that wide eyed girl I used to know so well...but I'll find another dream...another way...I will be amazing again someday...in my own eyes and if I'm lucky in the eyes of the people I hold dear