Broken smiles ( Poem )

Broken Smiles
I used to be happy, not alone or scared
So Cheery and bright,
I thought they would always be there,
Guiding me all the way
But that was before,
things now are not that way
I have scars inside and out,
the pain never fades.
In my mind there is only a doubt,
that I can live without them.

Ones humor alwasy made me smile,
I will never forget
And he was my friend for a while.
But as time past we grew apart,
now all I have left
Is a broken heart

Another shared my pain, felt the way I do,
we conected and helped each other.
From then out I friendship only grew.
That is until tragety struck
His brother passed away
now he's broken and stuck

This one was my other half,
I rreally felt he was,
I loved his smile and adored his laugh.
But I guess even love cant last.
he lost to cancer,
And his time ran out to fast

Last is my twin, my brother, and friend,
I'll love him forever
Our bond will never end.
We are not bonded by blood or law,
but it should have been that way.
And without him my life is raw.
His death was cruel and unfair,
Brought down by his father.
Maybe I could have saved him, had I been there
But I wasn't and now he is gone

Now I hide behind my broken smile,
afriad to open up
Im behinde myself by at least a mile.
I have scars on my wrist, I have scars on my heart,
I will never trust agian.
I long to forget, and get a fresh start.
But I know life is full of pain and hate
I know it will happen agian
and for me, it is just to late