hard

hard

nobody understands how hard it is
just for me to exist and live
most people have a life they lead
mine leads me i have no choice
but to write it down that is my voice
maybe one day things will change
my life wont be the words so strange
until that day ever comes
my life my mind will always hum
the song that is the way i am
the life that leads i feel so damned
ive come to accept who i am
they say its talent
but its not my friend
its living hell no control over my thoughts
i wonder if i even have a soul
this is me it will always be
the one who writes
now not only for me