Indeed, I Do part 2

He took me in making sure I was alone and that the doors were all locked. He hugged me and kissed me promising to call. I watched him drive away and my heart slammed into my chest. I practically ran to my room, slammed the door and locked it behind me. I checked my phone messages, several from Brooke begging me to call her and two from Kevin begging forgiveness. Hearing Kevin's voice shook me to the core again. His voice reminding me once again of what he'd done to me. I wanted a shower, I suddenly felt unclean. I pushed Kevin out of my head deciding to focus on what Kyle had said today. He had said that I was left because I didn't put out. I tried to wrap my head around that statement as I turned the water on in the shower. I thought of each of the guys I had dated. I was definitely a virgin in everything. The only thing I had ever allowed one to do was cop a feel over my shirt. There had been lots of kissing but I had never felt lost in it like I did with Kyle. I was always aware and thinking of something else. Just letting them kiss me to get it over with. Like it was my duty to let them at least kiss me, as soon as their hands would start trying to explore it would make me furious. My thoughts ended on Kevin and I remembered how I would tease him with dancing seductively or leaning over to reveal cleavage or just about anything to tease him into wanting me but then not letting him do anything about it. I scrubbed my skin remembering just how patient Kevin had been with me especially since now I knew he didn't have to be. Did Kyle have the strength that Kevin had? Did all guys have that strength to just take what they wanted? Could they all leave me feeling defenseless like Kevin had? As I dried off cold terror tried to grab me so I thought of Kyle and his green eyes. No, Kyle would never hurt me, he was my savior, right? I toweled off knowing in that moment that Kyle could force me if he wanted to. He did have the strength to, maybe he wouldn't, but he could.

Brooke came over later to spend the night, bringing pizza, drinks and a shoulder to cry on. She had been doing alot of crying by the looks of her. Bless her heart I had scared her to death by not calling her. I felt terrible but I couldn't talk about it, I wanted to forget. Just forget. She quizzed me and I redirected changing the subject. Hurt was written all over her face. We didn't keep secrets from each other. Although I didn't want to hurt her I couldn't talk about it. She listened patiently to me talk about Kyle, even asking questions here and there. We walked outside to sit by the pool, drinks in hand. The night was beautiful, the moon full, the stars shining, a gentle breeze blew and I settled into my chair, my mind still turning, still wondering how someone like me was going to keep someone like Kyle.

"Shelby, I found out today that Kyle used to date Shayna. Did you know that?"
"No," I said softly, my heart falling to my feet. So my Kyle was experienced, you didn't date Shayna and not come away a "man". She made sure of it. While I changed their appearance, she changed their experience, I decided in that moment that Shayna and I both had mental issues. Well, this upped the anti for me and Kyle. He knew what having a sexual relationship meant, most of the guys I dated had no clue, they just wanted to know but Kyle, he knew.
"Brooke, have you and Adam had sex yet?"
She responded to the question like I had punched her in the stomach. So much for not having secrets. I noticed a little john boat anchored close to my dock. The little light bobbed up and down revealing the dark shape of a man. Was I crazy or did he look up from his task when I had asked Brooke that question?
"Oh come on Shelby you know we made a pact not to do that before we were married. No, Adam and I have not had sex."Her voice had just the hint of regret. They hadn't but it was getting hard for her to turn him down?
"Then what makes him stay Brooke? Like, guys leave when you won't put out but then they also leave when you do, look at poor Shayna. She never keeps a guy."
"Well, we do....other things, you know play around. Honestly, though, Shelby it's getting really hard to say no to him because I find myself wanting to. It wasn't hard until he went below the belly button and then...that just changed everything." her voice was wispy and dreamlike. "Wait, why are you talking this way?"snapping back to the reality of our talk.
"Well, here's what I learned last night Brooke. I learned that they just let us say no because honestly, we have no power over them except what they let us have. We are defenseless against them. Their strength is scary Brooke, we are just rag dolls compared to them. I also learned last night that I need Kyle Scott. I discovered today that I have to keep Kyle Scott no matter what I have to do. I just have to figure out how to keep him. Now that I know about him and Shayna, I know that sex will be expected so I have to offer myself to him before he decides to either leave me or take it because Brooke, I can't go through what I went through last night again. I just can't." I started to cry and hold myself. Brooke put her arm around me and we cried together. I heard the boat's motor spring into action and watched it speed away taking the little girl that used to be me with it.

It was dark and foggy. I was running, topless, down a path through the woods. He was chasing me and I was getting tired, I could barely go on but I knew if I could make it to the hideout I would be safe. I looked behind me and Kevin's grin came into view, that once handsome face turned hideous with red glowing eyes, he seemed to literally be growing arms as I watched in horror. I sped up, seeing Kyle up ahead calling to me to hurry. Just before I reached him, something grabbed my ankle and I fell falling deeper and deeper into a pit of darkness....

I awoke with a start, Brooke starring at me with concern on her face. I couldn't get my heart to calm down, I was drenched in sweat and my breath was coming in spurts. The door to my room opened slowly, my mom stuck her head in and asked,"Everything alright in here?"
Brooke just smiled at her and said, "Yes ma'am Shelby just had a bad dream."
My mom just smiled and said, "Ok, try and get some sleep." closing the door behind her.
Brooke turned back to me. "Shels! What was that? You were screaming and thrashing. I tried to wake you up but you started fighting me off. Sweety, are you ok?"
I sat up and looked at her, with a look of horror on my face, a truth that I had blocked coming back to me in that moment, "Oh Brooke, he saw me like that!" I buried my head in my hands.
"Who? What are you talking about?"
"Oh Brooke, Kyle he saw me without a shirt on! He saw me like that! He saw me topless, my hands held above my head! He saw me in a moment like that! He witnessed it all. He saw me at the lowest point in my life. How could he ever...want me now?" I started to cry wondering what he thought of me? Shame washed over me. He saw me at my weakest, he had seen me unclothed, he had seen how weak I was, how insufficient I was....
"Shels, you aren't thinking clearly. Yes, he saw it all. Can you imagine the terrible images he has in his head? The image of someone hurting you? That's not something that would make him think less of you! That's something that would make him want to kill Kevin. So he saw you topless, I realize that is humiliating but I'll bet he doesn't even remember that part! Oh, sweety, you need to talk to somebody. You have to get it out! You have to deal with it. Talk to me, to your parents, to Kyle, to my dad! I don't care who you choose but you have to stop pushing it behind you if you ever want to move ahead."
I nodded my head, she was right. I was being ridiculous. I knew it and yet, I couldn't help but feel shame. Did I cause it? Was it my fault? I closed my eyes and tried to get some sleep, knowing I wouldn't, dreading what awaited me if I did.

As I lay there I heard my dad come home, looking at the clock I saw that it was 2am. Where had he been? I heard a hushed argument between my parents. I heard my dad go in the guest bedroom and quietly close the door behind him.

The next morning, Brooke and I were having our breakfast out by the pool. She was telling me about her and Adam's plan to spend the day at the beach. She wanted me to go. I popped a grape in my mouth and just looked at her like she was crazy. With a mouth full I said, "You know I can't be seen in a bathing suit right now!"
She sighed, realizing I was right. She was the one who had pointed that out when I changed into a tank top last night. I had resorted to wearing this old white tshirt that was a least two sizes too big to sleep in. The same one I still wore. I had managed to brush my teeth, put my hair in a ponytail and pull on an old pair of shorts before coming outside but had yet to get dressed. I was staring absently at the waterway trying to decide what I was going to do with my day. The thought of going through the motions of getting dressed was enough to stop me. I popped another grape in my mouth looking at the boats on the waterway as they flew by, I sighed, my eyes resting on an old john boat that was anchored. A boy with blonde hair peaking out from his hat appeared to be baiting his hook. I just starred at him something was familiar about him...I grabbed another grape....wait...was that Kyle? I stood up quickly shielding my eyes with my hand trying to get a better look.
"Shelby! Oh no! Shelby! Kevin is here! He's talking to your mom in the kitchen!" I heard those words come out of Brooke's mouth at the same time that I realized that it was Kyle in the boat.
"I have to go!", I yelled to Brooke, grabbed a handful of grapes and took off running to the dock. I heard her yell my name but all I could do was wave frantically to Kyle. He noticed me and waved back. I ran down that dock as fast as I could. I watched him pulling up the anchor and turned to look behind me. I nervously popped another grape in my mouth. Brooke, Kevin and my mom were starring at me from the back porch of my house. Another grape. I prayed that Kyle would hurry as I watched Kevin descending the steps in an effort to head to me, Brooke on his heels. Kyle cranked the motor and was suddenly speeding in my direction a grin on his face. I turned to look behind me and saw Kevin break into a half hearted sprint trying to reach the dock. Kyle reached me at that moment and his smile was replaced my a look of anger when he saw Kevin reach the dock.
"Hurry, Kyle!", I said frantically reaching for him.
"You chariot awaits," he said as he reached up and pulled me down into the boat with him.
"Get me out of here!" I said panic in my voice.
I heard Kevin scream,"Shelby!!"
Kyle glared at him, as he pushed us away from the dock with one hand and helped me to reach the bench seat beside him with the other. When I was seated he said, "Hold on baby" and gunned it. The boat lifted off the water as we made our get away just in time. I could hear Kevin yelling at us but the sound of the motor drowned out his words. Kyle didn't slow down until we turned the corner out of sight of my house.
"How do you do it?", I asked in wonder looking at him for the first time, once again my savior, looking adorable in a pair of camouflage shorts, an old OP tshirt and a fishing hat on his head.
He laughed and said,"I told you I have experience with saving damsels in distress."
We laughed together. "Where to my lady?", he said with a flourish of his hat.
"I don't care just get me there fast!" I said lifting my arms as he sped the boat up. The wind felt good on my face. I took my hair out of the ponytail and shook it out wanting to feel the wind blowing my hair. I could feel his eyes on me but I just stayed that way lost in the wind. I was so lost in the feeling that I didn't realize it was lifting my shirt until it was too late. My shirt flew off but he caught it before it was lost to the water. I stared at him in horror but he just smiled and whispered in my ear, "You are going to be the death of me!" He kissed my cheek and handed me my shirt his eyes never leaving mine. I just stared into his eyes, I couldn't move, he shook his head at me with that grin and said,"You'll be needing that." as he pointed to an approaching boat. I used it to cover myself but didn't put it back on. It would have been too obvious to the other boat. A teenage boy on the other boat just stared at me as they went by. Kyle chuckled and shook his head steering the boat down a little branch in the waterway. It was a place I had never gone but I realized it would take us away from the crowded waterway to a secluded area on the way to the river. He slowed the boat as he maneuvered the boat into the narrow channel. When it widened, he sped up again, I knew what he was hoping I'd do. I wasn't sure I could do it willingly but as the wind started whipping my face, blowing my hair, I raised my arms again offering him the view of me that I knew he wanted to see again. He had saved me twice, it was the least I could do, I closed my eyes and started to laugh. It felt so good to be this free. I opened my eyes briefly to see what his reaction was but he was looking at my face and smiling as if it made him feel good to see me so happy. He slowed the boat as the channel narrowed again and I put my shirt back on. I didn't meet his eyes, I couldn't, I was suddenly very embarrassed about what I'd done. So, I just looked at the riverbanks around us. There were all kinds of wild flowers in bloom. He drove slowly and cut a bloom with a knife he drew from his pocket. He smelled it and handed it to me,"A wild orchid. Smell it, it smells really good." I smelled it but still wouldn't look at him. He leaned forward putting his finger under my chin turning my face until our eyes met. His eyes searched mine, I tried to look away but he wouldn't let me, he just stared into my eyes. I bit my lip, he leaned forward, closing his eyes and as our lips were just about to meet I whispered,"Did you look?" His eyes flew open and he stared back at me our lips were so close, our eyes locked, his voice came out in a rasp when he said,"Yes." He went into kiss me again and I whispered,"Did you like what you saw?" He groaned a yes in response. I smiled in spite of myself. I had danced this dance before. This was what I did. It was fun, it was dangerous but this was a place where I was comfortable. I was in control for once since meeting him. This was the old Shelby rearing her head. What I didn't count on was my body betraying me like it did when he finally kissed me. My breath was coming as quickly as his, I was just as out of control as he was. I wanted him to kiss me, I didn't want him to ever stop kissing me. I threw my arms around him. He kissed me in a frenzy, in a way I had never been kissed before. His hands were under my shirt rubbing my back, pulling me closer to him. He lifted me with ease and sat me on his lap, my legs around his waist. He was kissing my neck, his hands easing closer to my breast, I was lost again the new sensations taking me somewhere I'd never been before. His tongue on my neck made me forget where we were, his hand cupped my breast and I no longer cared about being in control, I didn't care what he saw or touched, I just wanted it to last. I didn't want him to stop but he did. He came to himself immediately saying, "Shit! There's a boat." He lifted me back to my seat and we were off again. I stared at him as he drove and I wondered what else those hands could teach me. I couldn't wait for the next lesson. As he sped off away from the approaching boat I lifted my arms again and our laughter rang out over the water. This time I watched him watch me, I watched how he looked at me like he wanted to devour me, as he licked his lips staring boldly at me, meeting my eyes with a look that begged for mercy. I just laughed and put my shirt back on as I saw the waterway come back into view. I could see my house coming into view and I didn't want to go back. I looked at him starting to panic.
"What do you want me to do?", He asked.
"I want you to take me home.", I said. And he looked at me with disappointment in his eyes and nodded his head slowly. "Oh not there.", I said pointing to my parent's house. "To our place, silly." He hugged me to him and laughed nodding his head saying,"I like the sound of that much better."

My parents stood on the dock watching his boat speed by and I heard them say,"Is that her?" but I didn't look at them. I took his hat off his head, stuffed my hair into it, and placed it firmly on my head. I put my head on his shoulder loving being with him.

We finally made it to our "place" after a quick stop at the Marina when he bought us some lunch and a drink at the grill there. Jumping out of the boat, he pulled it onto the shore beaching it for the afternoon. We made our way to our blanket where we ate our food and talked easily about our favorite bands and movies. After devouring our food we laid down beside each other just starring up at the blooming wisteria above our heads. It felt so good to just be here with him. He was making fun of me about how my favorite artist was John Cougar and I was explaining to him how no, he was John Mellencamp. I said,"Oh come on! You know Jack and Diane is the coolest song ever! You know you loved it!"
He laughed, "I think I prefer "Hurts So Good myself." He laid there beside me the smile still on his lips from that statement when I decided I had to know the answer to a question that had been plaguing me since last night. I sat up where I could watch his reaction.
"Can I ask you a question?", I asked all innocent like running my fingers down his arm.
"You keep doing that and you can ask me anything you want to! " his eyes were closed a smile stuck to his lips.
"Have you ever....you know....had sex?"
He went still. He finally chuckled, opening his eyes and looking at me shaking his head,"Oh no, I think there's a rule somewhere against that question darlin! Check the rulebook! I'm sure it's in there!"
I laughed, "Oh no, you said I could ask you anything as long as I kept rubbing your arm!"
He pulled me down to lay beside me and then lifted himself up on one elbow looking down at me. Taking his fingertips he lightly rubbed my arm. He was right, it felt really good. "You first. Have you?"
"No fair! You know the answer to that question! You know I haven't!" I laughed still teasing but he had turned serious just looking at me.
"Let me show you something. Roll over.", He said trying to roll me to my stomach.
"Oh no! You haven't answered my question!"
"I will, I promise, but first I want to teach you a pleasure I'm sure you know nothing about. Now roll over and take off you shirt." He said trying to lift my shirt off me, I held it down, not liking this anymore. It was one thing when it just happened but to assume that I was easy was another thing all together. "Shelby, I'm going to rub your back, that's all but it's easier without the shirt and it certainly feels better. I won't look if you don't want me to although I'd much rather get that view again, if you don't mind."
"And then you'll answer my questions?"
" I'll answer any question you can think of." He said with a smile as I took off my shirt once again in front of him. He sucked in his breath as he looked at me and I loved that feeling. The feeling that he found me pretty, it made me feel so good.
"Ok, roll over. God, you're beautiful.", his voice gruff, he shook his head and closed his eyes while I laid on my stomach.
He rubbed my back gingerly with his fingertips while he talked and I felt desire run the length of my body. He was awakening a desire in me I had never felt before as his fingertips moved slowly from my back, down my legs, up my sides, going dangerously close to areas that I never dreamed I'd want someone to go.. He knew what he was doing because I couldn't think of anything to ask, all I could think of was where I wanted him to touch me.
He started to speak, his voice low and seductive, "To answer your question, yes, I have. Yes, I want to with you. I would love to experience that with you. But, it's not what will make me stay with you, Shelby. Sex is not why I would leave or why I would stay. Who you are, not your body, as badly as I would like to explore every little inch of it, is the reason I would stay with you. Whether we do or whether we don't, I want to be with you. Now do you have any more questions Angel?"
I sighed and said,"You, Mr. Scott, don't play fair."
"Why would you say that?"
"You knew I wouldn't be able to think with you doing this."
"So no more questions then?"
My voice was foreign to me as I responded in a husky voice,"Yes, if I roll over will you continue to touch me like that?"
His voice was in my ear when he said,"I would touch you anywhere or anyhow you want me to Shelby."
He rolled me over, his shirt had been removed and he hugged me against him. When his chest met mine I moaned in spite of myself. The feel of his warm skin against mine was overwhelming. I was feeling lost in him again. I didn't know what I was saying when I said,"Don't stop." I just wanted to feel it all, I realized what I'd been missing all these years. It felt good and I didn't want it to stop. He kissed me running his hands down my bare back again and I arched my back wanting to be closer to him. I ran my fingers down his back and he groaned as he ran his tongue down my neck, between my breasts, circling my breasts, my fingers in his hair as he sucked my nipple making me cry out. His hands were still moving down my stomach, his fingers rubbing me gingerly below my belly button, running lower and lower until he reached the waistband of my shorts. He snaked his hands back to my back pulling me on top of him and pressing me into him. I could feel his hardness against me and we both were moaning then. He flipped me back onto my back, kissing me as his hand went to my bottom and then snaked it's way to my spot where nobody had ever touched me before. I jerked and he stopped but I didn't want him to stop and I moved my bottom toward his hand. Begging him silently to go back there. He rubbed me slowly and my legs started spreading all on their own. I had never felt so good in my life. I was like jelly in his hands. He searched my eyes, silently asking me if it was ok and I whispered,"Don't stop." He kept going rubbing me and kissing me until I thought I'd lose my mind. He was taking my pants off, kissing my breasts and I didn't care, I just lay there like a rag doll, moans escaping me, I was moving involuntarily to the motion of his hands as I lay there naked before him. He leaned up and starred at me down there and I closed my legs horrified. He gently opened my legs again and said,"Don't hide from me Shelby. You are beautiful and I want to see." He groaned as he looked at me and touched me there. I lost myself again as his fingers explored me, my legs spreading wider in spite of me. He looked at me hungrily, licking his lips as my hips moved in time with his fingers. Slowly, as I watched in my hazy vision, I saw him watching me, down there as he slowly slid his finger in me, making me cry out. He rubbed me with one hand while his finger moved in and out, in and out. I could feel myself climbing inside as he kissed me and then he whispered in my ear, "This, my beautiful, is your first orgasm." And with that my world exploded, I felt this rush down there, my back arched and I twitched and jerked but it was the most amazing sensation I'd ever experienced and it left me breathless. He kissed me again and said, "Don't move, I'll be right back." I lay there spent, my breathing slowing down and wondering when he would be back so we could do that again. Wow. That wasn't even all that sex was and I was hooked. I couldn't wait to do that again. I wondered where he had gone, wondering if I should get dressed but I didn't I just laid there in the position he had left me in. He told me not to move so I wouldn't, not a muscle. I started feeling a little weird laying there naked with my legs spread open like that when I heard him coming back, I started to feel myself come back to life down there when I heard him approaching.
He was there beside me then hugging me to him,"So, what did you think?"
"I want to know when we can do that again!"
Laughing he said,"Again, huh? Don't you want to take this slow?"
He stood up, pulled me to my feet and took a step back looking me up and down. I did a spin for him feeling very appealing in that moment.
"Shelby you are beautiful."He said licking his lips.
"When do I get to see you handsome?"I said walking towards him."Are you afraid I will turn tail and run?", I asked nibbling his lip.
"You better behave yourself. I'm a beast you know." he kissed me plunging his tongue in my mouth. He lifted me up and my legs were around him again my bare self against his hardness concealed in his pants. I started to throb with excitement again. His hand was on me again and he said,"Going slow is overrated." I was down on the blanket again and he was undoing his pants, life was great until I heard the sound of his zipper. Panic squeezed me and I scrambled underneath him trying to get away. Sheer terror gripping me. He grabbed me in an embrace and I fought against him as I started to cry,"Hey, Shelby, it's ok baby. I'll stop. It's okay. Don't run, ok, I'll let you go just don't run away." He got up and I struggled to my feet scrambling to get dressed as fast as I could, my tears coming faster and faster. I fell to my knees once I was safely dressed and covered my head in my hands. The panic starting to fade.
"Shelby?", he whispered tentatively trying to touch me. I flew in his arms and told him I was sorry over and over. "Oh baby, it's ok. Shhh, you're safe, now, it's ok." he rubbed my back like that first night and just held me. I felt like such a fool, I didn't know what had happened to bring that on. I felt so stupid, like such a baby. But the sound of that zipper was too much like the other night. I had felt closed in like I was caged and couldn't move but it was Kyle not Kevin. Why did I react that way?
"Hey sweetheart, I think it's time I got you home.", he said when my cries had subsided. My heart sank, I had ruined everything. I just nodded in agreement like a good little girl and followed him to the boat. He lifted me in and placed me on the seat that would be in front of him not beside him. I was too much trouble for him, he was going to leave and I had no idea what to do about it. I started to panic for a different reason then, I watched him shove the boat in the water and then to jump in the boat. Putting the motor in the water, he pulled the cord to crank it.
"Kyle?" I asked. "Is this it?"
"What?"he said absently and pulled the cord again when it didn't crank the first time.
"When will I see you again?"I asked.
"How bout tonight?" he said with a smile as the motor came to life.

With a kiss and a pat on the rear, Kyle dropped me off at the dock. I was walking on sunshine when I walked in the back door. My parents were sitting at the bar watching me. "Where have you been young lady?", My mom asked angrily.
"I went on a boat ride with Kyle.", I said going to the fridge to get something to drink.
"You've been gone all day, you were rude to Kevin and Brooke, you didn't ask to go and you weren't properly dressed to go.", she responded.
"Mom, please, what do you wear to go fishing? A ballroom gown? Besides, it was an unexpected surprise. As for Brooke she needed to leave anyway and Kevin, I have nothing to say to Kevin. We are longer friends."
"Since when? That's such a shame. He's such a nice young man. He was so upset when you just left like that. He said he'd stop by later. I told him tonight would be fine. Your dad and I will be out but we don't mind if he comes over while we're gone."
"You did what?! How could you do that? You invited that jerk over here without even asking me first? Well, I have plans too!" I exploded on her.
My dad looked up from his book then and asked,"What are your plans Shelby?"
"Kyle is picking me up at 6 and taking me to dinner.,"I said taking a sip of my drink. "We might go to the movies afterward. I'm not sure yet. We probably won't be home til late."
"Kyle who?", my mom asked.
"Kyle Scott. He is the most wonderful guy mom! He has these green eyes...."
"Scott as in Ken Scott's son? I don't think so. No daughter of mine is going to date a Scott and that is final.," dad said going back to his book.
"Well, I'm leaving at 6 so I better go take a shower. Hope y'all have fun tonight.", I said going to my room. Whatever, like they would be here to find out anyway.

Like I figured they left at 5:30 saying not to wait up on them. I looked at myself in the mirror. I looked pretty good. I had decided to wear my hair curly for tonight. I wore my best jean mini skirt and a teal shirt that revealed one shoulder. When I lifted my arms my stomach showed so I might try to figure out a way to do a little arm lifting, it would drive Kyle crazy. I lathered myself in lotions and then I sprayed my perfume walking into the fumes. I sprayed it behind my ears for a little added pleasure. I was nervous, this was the first time we would be seen in public. He was taking me out to eat and then on to a "surprise" he said. I had worn my skimpiest and laciest underwear just in case. I was ready and pacing by 5:45. I applied and reapplied my lipstick. Double checking myself in the mirror several times. At 5:55 the doorbell rang, I squealed in delight. Told myself to be cool and then calmly walked to the door grabbing my purse on the way. I opened the door with a smile on my face and a little seductive pose expecting Kyle. Instead, I was starring into Kevin's face. I tried to slam the door but he put his foot in the way to stop it. I leaned on the door with all my might knowing he could push his way in with no problem.
"Look Shels, I just want to talk to you. I promise, I won't hurt you! I mean how many times have we been here alone and I never did anything you asked me not to! You know that's true Shels!" He pushed the door open and I slowly started backing away terror written all over my face. He stared at me, his shoulders slumped, his head going in his hands."God I hate seeing you like this! I can't believe I did something to hurt you. I am so sorry. I love you Shels, I would never hurt you."
"Yeah but you did hurt her Kevin. I think you need to leave.," I heard Kyle say pushing past him to get to me. I flew to Kyle and he hugged me saying,"You're alright baby." in my ear where only I could hear him.
"Is this a fucking joke? You are scared of me but not of Kyle? Are you fucking kidding me? Come on Shelby! You don't know this guy! You have to believe me!"
Kyle let go of me and walked deliberately to Kevin. "Kevin we have a problem here. You are that problem Kevin. Now I am going to ask you to leave and if you don't I'm going to send her to call the police because what you did to her is something that she should have involved the police in. Do I need to send her to the phone Kevin?" I stood there watching them and I saw the fear that came into Kevin's eyes. Kevin looked frantically from me to Kyle. The fear surfaced when he threatened to send me out of the room it wasn't from me calling the police. Kevin's uncle was a deputy, he wasn't afraid of the police. He was afraid to be alone with Kyle. It didn't make sense. Catching on I said,"I'll be right back I need to grab a jacket." I walked out and then doubled back peaking around the wall to see Kyle grab Kevin by his collar and slam him into the wall,"Listen hear, Kevin, you leave my girl alone or I'll fuck you up! You know I can and you know I will. If I hear so much as someone mention your name to her you will regret it. You will disappear without a trace. I warned you that night. Didn't I? That's right I did warn you that night, come here you piece of shit." I watched Kyle drag him out the door. Kevin just watched as Kyle took a knife and jabbed it in his tire. The tire deflated.
"Kyle why are you doing this? You know I love that girl!", Kevin whined.
"You call what I walked up on the other night love? You had her stripped and trapped against a tree! Just seeing that image everytime I lay my head down at night makes me want to kill you! You were raping her Kevin! You don't rape someone you love! Did you see the bruises you left that girl with? You have no idea! Just me unzipping my pants freaked her out you piece of shit!"
"Unzipping your pants? What were you trying to do Kyle? What's it been two days and you've already trying to fuck her? I was with her for 6 months and I never tried! Not once! You are just trying to get in her pants. She's a challenge to you, nothing more and nothing less. You think I'm an animal? You're a predator! You are making her love you and trust you, spread her legs for you and then you'll move on."
With that Kyle punched him in the jaw. Kevin flew backward landing on the concrete. He spit and blood came out of his mouth. He looked up at Kyle, as he held his jaw and laughed, "You've already been in her pants haven't you Kyle? Damn, you're good, I have to give you that. Kendall taught you well that's for sure."
Kyle said,"I'm nothing like Kendall. We're done here. You better be gone when I get her home."
He turned to look at the door and I stepped out then. Striking a pose just for Kyle. He whistled and I flew in his arms. He touched me on the butt, kissing me and spinning me around. He took me by the hand and led me past Kevin who starred at me with horror and disbelief all over his face.

We had a great dinner at the Italian restaurant in town. I saw some friends there and I introduced Kyle to them as my boyfriend. Although Kyle and I hadn't discussed what we'd call each other I decided I would go for it and pay the price later.
Looking over our menus he said, "Boyfriend. huh?"
"Well, only my boyfriend can...." I couldn't say it. It just felt dirty and I became embarrassed covering my face with my menu.
"What? Only your boyfriend can what?" he said softly pulling my menu down to look at me.
I giggled suddenly embarrassed,"Nothing." putting my menu back up.
He laughed and pulled my menu back down. Leaning in he said,"Say it."
"No." I couldn't help but giggle though.
"Say it. You have to finish the sentence or I won't give you your surprise.", he covered his face with his menu. OH. He didn't play fair. He knows how I love surprises. I pouted and tried to work up the nerve all through dinner to say the word. He watched me with a knowing smile through most of the dinner. He knew I was struggling.
After dinner. He stopped for gas. He was putting gas in his car and talking to some guy I'd never seen before. They were mid conversation when I called Kyle over. He was distracted talking to the guy back and forth. He said, "Yeah babe?" He was only halfway listening when I said,"Hey Kyle, only my boyfriend can fuck me." He did a double take and looked at me with wide eyes and broke out in a huge grin. "Sorry, man, have I introduced you to my girlfriend?" We both had a hard time keeping our composure.

He took me to the party at Spooky's house. I used to go there when I dated Alex but hadn't been in so long. The last time I had been there was one of the most embarrassing moments in my life. I had pretty much realized that Alex and I could only be just friends and I proceeded to get drunk. Very drunk. In my drunken stupor I had heard the band start playing this song and I just got into it. The singer stared at me the whole time that he sang the words, "I just want to make love to you, feel your body heat". Somehow I ended up on stage with him. Alex had been mortified when he came back from the bathroom to see his girlfriend up on the stage, dirty dancing with the singer. I didn't know who that guy was but I remembered him kissing me up on the stage and my knees going weak. The crowd had melted away and it felt like he sang just for me. I blushed just thinking about it, Kyle looked at me and said,"You embarrassed for some reason?" a wicked grin on his face. Oh shit. He knew about it! Seeing that grin I knew that he had been there, he had seen the display I had put on and I wanted to die. I hung my head and refused to look at him in response. He slung his arm around me and opened the door to the house.

We walked in and everybody was saying hey to Kyle. He was like a superstar there. He kept his arm around me the entire time, introducing me to people. He was so confident and people flocked to him. The girls glared me down like I was the enemy. So they all had the hots for him, that was easy to see. I left him to go speak to Trent. Trent and I may not have dated long but I still just loved him. He was the kindest guy I had ever dated. The truest gentleman, so romantic and just plain adorable. My mother fell in love with him immediately which made him not quite as appealing as he had been. We both decided after a few months that we were just friends. He saw me and waved. "Hey babydoll! How are you?" he said hugging me.
"Oh Trent I'm doing good how are you?" hugging him back.
"Is it true that you're dating Kyle Scott?"
"Yes." I said beaming. I loved the sound of that and I loved Kyle. Our eyes met across the room and he winked at me.
"Shels, I need you to listen to me carefully and not repeat a word I say to you. Put that smile back on your face right now precious, he's watching. Okay, I need you to be careful with him. Honey, I'm afraid you're in way over your head here. He's a player Shels, believe me, I know. I party with him every week. Be careful!" He left me then to wonder just what kind of guy I'd fallen for. A guy that a football player was afraid of. A guy that someone as nice as Trent was afraid to talk about. They both warned me about him and I didn't understand. Of course, I didn't believe anything Kevin said but Trent? No. Trent didn't lie. Period. Everybody knew that Trent was the guy that would tell the truth under the severest of consequences. He was suspended once because he was accused of cheating. He had cheated but it was his word against another student's word. They would have just given him a tongue lashing but he couldn't lie. He told the truth and he was suspended. Which was devastating to him. I believed that he believed what he was telling me and therefore, I would be more careful when it came to Kyle I decided in that moment. Taking a sip of beer my eyes searched the room for him and we made eye contact. As he motioned for me to come there I knew that it was too late. I would have to deal with the consequences the best way I could when it ended because I was head over heels in love with Kyle Scott.

"Come here Angel. I want you to sit right here. Give me ten minutes and it will be surprise time. Ok? I'll be right back." He kissed me and disappeared into the crowd. He had put me at a table in front of the stage that was in the backyard. Lights dangled from trees, tables were set up around a crudely made dance floor. The crowd was thick and drunk, yelling for the band. I saw musicians heading to their instruments. My mouth dropped when I saw Kyle pick up a guitar and walk right to the microphone. The crowd started to cheer and Kyle yelled in the microphone, "I want you to want me!" The band came alive as they played the Cheap Trick song. Kyle grinned at me when he saw my confusion and then my delight. He could sing and sing well. He worked the crowd and he knew how to work a guitar. His eyes caught mine and he was singing to just me....I threw my head back and laughed, clapping my hands. He grinned with me as he sang,"I'd love you to love me". Kyle was my hot singer. It was him that I had made a drunken fool of myself with. I didn't know whether to laugh, hide or cry but I decided to keep smiling.
"Don't get too big headed he sings that to all the girls.", Shayna said sliding into the seat beside me.
"Hey, Shayna, it's a pleasure to see you too." I said, as rudely as I could taking a sip of the now hot beer.
"Look, honey, I don't care really. I just wanted you to know that you're playing with the big boys now. He knows what he's doing and there's not one thing either one of us can teach him. Best thing in bed, I screwed up dumping him. I regret it everyday."She said devouring him with her eyes.
"So you dumped him?"I asked incredulously."Right, sure you did."
"Hey chick I don't have a reason in the world to lie to you. I sure did. I did the worst thing anyone can do. I left him for his brother. Be careful of Kendall. You think Kyle's hot? Shit, he ain't got nothing on Kendall, best looking man in the whole state I do believe. But, Kyle got all the heart. Now listen, Kyle won't lie to you. He won't. You ask him how he feels and he'll tell you straight up. He will only play you if you allow him to. You hear me?"
"Shayna, I appreciate your concern but..."
"Now listen here Shelby. You don't know him okay? I do. You are used to guys that will lay there panting after you while you play your little head games. They are just in shock that they finally have a date and then it's with you and it's a dream come true. Kyle, he could have any girl he wants, I just want you to be careful and know that Kyle doesn't fall in love. Just before he screws you he'll say to you,"This is just for tonight. I won't be calling in the morning are you sure you can handle that?" and of course, the girl is so hot at the time she'll do anything. But, make no mistake there isn't a girl he's been with that hasn't regretted agreeing to his conditions. There isn't a girl here that isn't in love with him. I just don't want you to get hurt Shelby. Don't agree to that condition, hold out on him. Nobody has ever been able to hold out on him before and I think maybe you can. That's all ok?"
"Why do you care if I'm hurt or not Shayna?" I barely knew this girl. We were on the same cheerleading squad but we barely talked, we didn't run in the same circles, didn't speak other than cheerleading. Frankly I'd always made a point to stay away from her because of her bad reputation. Now, look at me, what Kyle and I did today would give me the same reputation.
"Because I heard what Kevin did to you Shelby and that's not cool. Plus we're squad sisters, right? Speaking of Kevin, remember your knees Shelby, if used in the right spot and way they can drop him to his knees Or you could use your hand, make him think you want him, grab him and twist as hard as you can." she says demonstrating with her hand the technique she's describing.