Darling

I'm coming to terms with my trust issues.
I'm starting to forgive you for what happened.
Yes I still hurt and ache,
But there's no denying that look in your eyes.

You love me,
I know this for sure
Because any other person would have ran a mile by now.
Through all my tears,
Mood swings,
Bursts of anger and outrage,
My silence and harsh words,
Obsession with cats and constant nagging;
You stood by me,
You allowed me to rest my wary head upon your strong, muscular shoulder
And just cry.
You held me and comforted me,
You made everything seem okay in my darkest hours.

You've loved me endlessly through it all.

Of course I'm still going to get jealous,
Feel the angry pinch of envy in my veins when another girl has your attention.
You're my life,
My soul mate.
And I can't have anybody interfering with that.
But I'm working on it, I promise.

You'll never find someone who will love and care for you like I do,
I know this for sure because I put every little bit of myself into loving you.
Who else is going to put your socks into matching pairs and fold your washing?
Endure painful band practices without complaining, much.
Make you what ever you want for breakfast, lunch, dinner?
Who's going to constantly ask if you're okay when you're sick,
Take your temperature and make sure you have pain relief and hot tea.
Who else is going to make sure your tattoos and peircings don't get infected,
Or comfort you when you have a bad dream?

I don't know, maybe there is someone out there that would do all that for you,
All I know is that I guarantee I can do it better, with more love and am willing to do so for the rest of my life.

I adore everything about you,
Your nose and freckles and scruffy hair.
Your rough hands and fingers.
The way the colour of your eyes change from blue to green.
Your smooth pale, milky skin.
Your wacky sense of humour and lame jokes.

I love falling asleep with our legs tangled
And waking up to you cuddled into my back.
The best feeling in the world is knowing that I get to wake up and fall asleep with you.
Knowing that you're mine and that you feel the same way about me.

I know I can be difficult sometimes and I apologise for that,
But it's just how I am, I guess you know that by now…
I'm so grateful for you putting up with me and my whinging,
And spoiling me with things.
I could never make up for all the things you've done for me.

If not for you, I would not be the person I am today.
You came into my life at such an important, fragile time and I can never say how much it meant to me for that to happen.
You made me a better person, brought out the best in me.
If I hadn't of met you when I did I don't even know where I'd be right now.
You're like my saviour, my prince, knight in shining armour.
I knew from the moment I laid eyes on you that you would be something special in my life and that I couldn't let you go no matter what.

I love you ever so much,
Words could never describe the amount of feelings I have bursting inside of me.
Nothing I do or say will ever be good enough,
Even if I could give you the moon, the stars and the entire universe;
It still wouldn't compare.
My heart literally aches when you're gone,
And when you're here it's like someone's stuck a 1000 watt light bulb in my chest.
I wish I could do something to show you how much you mean to me.

So I promise to always love you unconditionally,
Support you with anything you want to do,
Comfort you in times of need,
Be your best friend and lover.

I would move mountains and rearrange the milky way for you Daniel Ashcroft.
You are my world.