One Good Reason

"One Good Reason"

Everything means nothing to me.
I hate myself and what I will be
Always delerious, too coward for mirrors
Always know your place when you hate your own face

Because I know how I began and how I will end.
Because I'm so very tired, babys got the bends.
Nothing redeeming about me, no prospects ahead.
I sicken and disgust myself to death.

I see her face in every mistake that i make.
Could be a trick played by my paranoid brain
But it seems every evil thought stems from her seed.
And I love to bleed, crave to spill it regularly.
Now I'm a crashed credit card-- registered to me
So say goodbye to those shopping sprees

Cause I swear since I was a kid I knew the whole time,
When I felt the weight buckle the choice would be mine
I flinch at sunlight, pray for rain
Not scared of dark, not scared of pain
So thanks for the compounds I got to borrow
I'm not scared of death, just scared of tomorrow

And on my next birthday all I fucking wish
Is for the Mayans to prove the Apocalypse
Last time i was sober? I'll never remember..
Hope I get my wish this December

So put me away and show me your games.
If you're still entertained here you're insane.'
Don't expect me to stay long cause the prophets were wrong
No Christian brother fucker's gonna string me along

Close the shop we're beyond repair
Don't you know, theres no cure for queers?
Grew up a screw up and ain't that a fact
Suicidal thoughts, wheres the fucking app for that?

I'm no good, I'm no good.. I sure wish I could lie
If only you saw what I hide in my mind
But I start to slide and the cracks start to show
They bruise and then glow.. now i'm lower than low

So lie and deny and give it away
Maybe the paper will make it all fade
Karma kicks in, lets weigh in my sins..

what a shock, thats sure a lot of fuckin weight
now dissapate, looking for a needle in the hay

How much more of this can i take?
Getting a little hard to fake..
Hear your heart break in front of your face
No time to waste.. the final hour awaits.