A Letter

you ruin almost every single day
you make me cry tears i thought have gone dry
every word you breathe breaks the trust
you make my heart ache at that thought of you
you consume me in your poisonous life
you make me feel hatred i don’t want to feel
you make me choose sides i should never have to choose
you’ve pushed me to lock myself in these four walls
you make me want to move to the other side of the world
and all of this i could eventually survive
except that through it all i still love you
as i tell myself that your tears are a perfected act
i hate to see them on your face
i can’t believe a word you say
although i do nothing but wish you words were true
though i want nothing to do with you
the thought of not seeing you everyday
slays me with the strength of 1,000 swords
do you see what you have done to me?
you’ve taken away my sanity.
Because how can one hate and love
and not go crazy?
How far will you let this go?