You Passed The Test

You tell me all these lies and I don’t know how to believe you.
I care about you deeply and don’t know what to do.
You say you love me and will do anything for me.
But why can’t I say no, why do I always agree?
My question is, why me, I’m not really that great.
People don’t love me, the only feeling I receive is hate.
I’ve been through a lot and I can’t allow myself to love you.
I can’t and I won’t love you, it’s just how i do.
Okay, I can;t lie, I feel deeply for you, but what if you’re just another guy?
I am too afraid to say yes and thens say goodbye.
So maybe if you prove that you are different from the last one.
You know how you hurt me and he made my life not fun.
What if that became you, what if you find out you don’t love me, that’s its all a joke?
That’s why I don’t love you, my heart will croak.
I built a wall to see who loves me enough to climb over the wall.
Now that you passed the test it makes me want to bawl.
Now that you passed, I have to figure out what I am going to do.
I care about you and on top of that I am scared to admit that I love you.
So stop worrying, I’m trying to figure out how to say it.
Because soon enough I will have to come to the truth and admit it.