life...

It's been 7 months since i graduated. I honestly couldn't be more thankful. After putting up with constant perverted talk from "tough guys" and athletes who think they're all that, and assignments that constantly made me light headed, I feel like i've got one of the biggest burdens lifted off my shoulders. Looking back, I hope someday, all the memories from the school days, except for those few special ones, will someday be wiped clean from my memory. I've learned quite a few things, things that can't be taught via class lesson. One thing I've learned is how jacked up not just my generation, but society really is. It really drives me crazy how people can let things, like playing football, or cheerleading, go to their head. The things I've learned have made me extremly thankful to be a loner. I love being different from everyone else. I've learned that trust is plainly, and simply non-existant. The law has a reputation for being our savior but I've seen different every now and then. I've also learned that if I ever get attacked, I may as well either die or defend myself. I've seen classmates gang up on a best friend just because of a medical problem he had. So i've learned that people don't care for one's personality, but they judge based on things like what kind of medical problem does one have? Is the person hot? Is the person rich?...ugh! i started hanging out with different people last year, but after all I've put up with, questions about my friendships still buzz inside my head...people started wanting to be friends with me as soon as they saw me walking across town (ugh i hope i havent become a town celebrity for it), so I honestly can't help but toask myself if they just feel sorry for me, if they're growing up, or just want to make me feel like a moron...I don't know so i really shouldn't care. So many other things about life bother me...like the way some people with poor upbringing seem as if they have no hope..they grew up with abusive parents or they were so poor and people discriminated against them and therefore that person can't even be eligible for a good paying job. This society is so geared in favor of the rich; like the way people will hate a normal rapist, but act like Hugh Hefner is a god of some sort. War..honestly I'm not on any one country's side, not even my own country's. I look at war as innocent people having to pay for stupid mistakes that the government or any dictator makes. Alot of people in different countries support it, but then again, that goes to show that so much of society loves hatred, like the way a person will get creeped out and give that kind of stare at someone who holds a door open for them.

to be continued....