Life as I know it....was over

It all started out when a girl named Alison which is me, had liked some boy in school named Tyler, I was only able to see him once a week sometimes after school. It killed me waiting to see him after that day had passed but I waited, I would always talk about him with my three best friends only them knowing my secret crush on Tyler but soon my crush had grown and it wasnt just a crush anymore, it was more then that.



It was a friday I believe when one of Tyler's friends had come up to me saying he had a message from Tyler but all I could do was shake my head not being able to move probably blushing like crazy then the words came out of his mouth "he likes you" once again all I could do was shake my head not being able to do anything still feeling like my face was burning up but I was able to say "okay" which was pretty surprising. When the day of the week came that he usually comes I thought things were going to be different but things werent it was still the same me and him walking past eachother just doing what we had to do, except for him out of no where poking my arm and smiling at me which made me start blushing so I would have to look away only being able to smile back.



Then one day came after school when I was about to leave for my after school program when Tyler's friend had come up to me again saying this "Tyler said he wanted to talk to you" so I guess that meant when I had left for my after school program I would see him there. So the time came when I had to leave, my heart wanting to jump out of my chest it felt like i was going to die but of course i wasn't, I made sure I wasn't alone so I made my friend Kisa come with me so we were heading over there my heart about to burst, we finally arrived and me and Kisa were looking for Tyler but we couldn't find him so we just decided to go to our after school program. It was a few minutes later when I looked to my right side and seen Tyler and his friend walking towards me I quickly look down at what I was doing and froze my heart was beating faster and faster, this time I was sure I would die. Then before i knew it Tyler and his friend were closer, his friend kept walking but Tyler stopped infront of the table I was sitting at turned around then bent down infront of the table and looked at me, I bet my face was beat red which would make it obvious that I liked him then he spoke "I like you, and was wondering if you would go out with me" once again all I could say was okay and shake my head I felt really stupid after that.



  The days past and everyday when he would come to the school was the same, we would hug and that would be it. A month later I realized I loved Tyler and he felt like the world to me even if he might not have been and I was the happiest I have been in a long time, but the happiness didn't last. One day I had went on Facebook and had realized he changed his relationship status to single and my heart had broke so I started crying until I had no tears left, then about a few hours later he changed his status to something and in that status he mentioned that he was single and he didn't even bother to tell me I was dumped just when I thought it couldnt get any worse it did and i cried once more but this time, until it put me to sleep.



The next day he sent me a text message asking if I wanted to get back together with him and I didn't even realize I said no until after the message was sent but I didn't regret saying no to him even if I did love him to death or so it felt that way.

More days past and i was still in love with Tyler like I was before nothing had changed, he had sent me text messages saying he loves me and he thinks about me also that he feels like i'm the one for him which is all lies. A day had come when I thought it was time for me to get over the fear of him not wanting to get back together so I asked him if I could have another chance, I was positive that he would say yes but he didn't but then again he never did give me a answer so I gave up. Yes, I said I was giving up if he just ignores it then it's a no i'm pretty sure but either way I have no choice I can't keep hoping and hanging onto this love even if it hurts me so much inside. It feels as if my life has ended right before my eyes.