While You Were Sleeping

I was drowning, why didn’t you see I was in distress?
I was gasping for air, slowly dying in the deep
My screams were not heard, where were you? I needed your help
You were not in my sight, were you somewhere asleep?

I escaped the fate that was placed before me
In front of me, around me, under me, on top of me today
Pulled myself up with all my strength, and came out from the top
I noticed that you were lying far away from me…unconcerned and asleep

What is your problem, what is wrong with you?
Can you not hear my screaming help or see my bobbing body
Or is it that you didn’t want to look at the negatives of the not so perfect person
That had developed into the film that you didn’t want to see?

Wake up!!!!! Why are you just lying here sleeping?
Didn’t you see what happened or hear the crying of my voice
Of course not, you must deaf, blind, and unconcerned
Not to notice scars of this hurt that were brought on by my own bad choice

It must be nice to lie back resting and not lifting a finger only used to point at me
Not worrying about my well being or soul at all
You selfish, lazy, insensitive, hypocritical person that I now see that you are
You had me fooled with your array of masks hidden behind your self-righteous wall

As you lay here, sleeping with a smile
All blatantly covering your conniving and evil face
Tell me, which part of your devious dream are u watching now?
Has my every existence of being in your life been mysteriously erased?

You knew that if I went out far enough without any help
I would be scared and cry for help from being in the deep
Lying back on your pedal stool, wearing your self-righteous shades
You would just lay here not willing to give any help to me

You knew just what trap to distract me and to pull me under
And what bait to be used to lure me out into the unknown deep
You said, “I know that this will take her under, I just know it”.
With closed lips, your secrets in your heart & mind your were definitely sure to keep

You sad existence of a person, there is nothing wrong with the hearing in your ears
You are lying here with both of your ears covered
The cry for help sounds deadened by musical notes of vindictive, evil songs that would echo
Throughout your ear drums like a loud, blasting roll of thunder


Here comes my open hand carrying an unexpected wakeup call
To send razor sharp needles running across you smiling insensitive face
Now you seem shocked, amazed and somewhat disappointed to see me
The bliss and peace that you were enjoying is now disappeared without a trace

You were so sure that I wouldn’t make it or have the strength
You had all of your plans in order all your ducks in a row
In utter amazement along with shattered dreams that eyes now hold
Your pupils can not focus on the foreign object that it doesn’t know

The sting that I open slapped across you prideful, rigid, dry face
Has also shot pains of disbelief and anger inside your eyes
I am standing over you saying, “Wake up baby, take a long look at me”
“That while you were sleeping, this woman standing here… survived!"