1 AM no sleep

Now they fight, no more silence. NOISE NOISE AND MORE NOISE. They never are quiet! They scream at eachother and everyone. . .They don't know I can hear them. I never sleep NEVER sleep. .  .To much noise their SCREAMS AND YELLS! I hate them, there shouts eat at me telling me no more family love. Love is nothing. . . There is NO love. All I can feel is pain. Is it my fault, they fight about us, us kids. It is my fault I can NEVER forgive myself.

Can I truthfully say it's not my fault. . . .Well it is or maybe it's that bitch of a sister. I need to run, run from here, from this hell. The back door that's my way out. . . .  . That's it, that's it. . . . .  My way from here and this hell. . . . Away. . .  I need to go away. . .  . . AWAY from the SHOUTING and the YELLING and the non-stop HELL!!! I HATE THIS FAMILY THIS LIFE!  Please help me anyone I need a way out. . . . . . . Get me out!