What?

This is a feeling that I can’t describe. I’m sitting here, typing this, and trying to figure out what to type. I guess I feel like writing when I get impatient. This is because I can’t figure out how to describe me liking someone. And why do I like them, anyways? This is such a stupid feeling… like I mean I read other people’s things and sometimes I think they just sound so stupid saying that they like someone. Then they list all of the reasons they like them and then give a little example. Well see, I’m trying to do this without sounding annoying like one of those air headed people that say they have a little crush. I have no one to talk about this with at the moment and I don’t even really want to talk about it… because there’s nothing that I need to say. I just feel like saying that I think having a little crush is fun. When I wake up in the morning they’re the first thing that pops into my mind. I know that sounds so stupid and I love to make fun of people that normally say that, but I just said it and it’s true. I’ll probably laugh at myself for saying all of this later, but oh well! I’m so impatient because I’m waiting on him to text me back because he’s in a hockey tournament somewhere. Normally he would text me by now, but he hasn’t. It’s 9:45 PM too… so I’m thinking that he won’t. I’ve just started “talking” to him and I can’t quite figure him out yet and that bothers me. Last night I was texting him and he randomly stopped texting me and I know it wasn’t because our conversation was boring because he had just finished saying how awesome he thought it was that we could keep a conversation over like nothing because he said something really stupid and I was talking about how he made me excited over nothing. And then I was just saying how good I am at keeping conversations like that because I talk a lot, but not to people I don’t know really well because I’m really shy. He said he was shy too and that’s the last thing he said to me… and that’s pretty funny to think about! Ugh I just want to know what’s running through his mind right now! I don’t think it’s so much that I like him, but I’m more like obsessing over this because I can’t figure him out! It’s kind of fun…. But it’s driving me crazy! Can’t you tell I’m going nuts here? Well, I better go. Fingers crossed that he texts me!