Myself

I was happy and gaily before I met you
I was being me
I spent my days carefree and true
People love me as me.

But everything changed, when I met you
I thought I'll be just fine
I found solitude in your world
However, I have survived.

Doing things together,
Spending time alone with you
So much happiness inside.

But the heated arguments
And frequent fights,
It tears me apart.

I could not understand
My feelings inside
If this is love what I feel
Or mere sympathy?

Sometimes I wish to go back
to the state I was before
And this time it has to be with you
To live again in this world.

But why does my heart ache
Everytime we are together?
I know it's way too late
To pull things back together.

I may have changed and became naive
But still you see me wrong
And don't have faith.

I may be weak but became strong
Becuase you made me feel
Like I won't last long.

In your eyes I was nothing
A pain and nightmare each day
But for me you were something
A light that guides my way.

When I am with you
I'll break into two
My head says go
But my heart says no

I don't know what's real anymore
My heart would likely to burst
You always make me cry
For you, there's always reason why.

I tried to moved on to deal with the past
I got to know you more but it made me feel less
All the years we had our love
I was not being myself.

I switched happiness to pain
A smile to be hurt
My freedom to being alone
And the life to have tears.

It was a mask I need to cover
It was a face I need to hide
It was a promise I need to keep
For a life I would like to have.

It doesn't matter to me anymore
My happiness I will sacrifice
My feeling of not being me
Would likely to fade slowly.

It seemed that we are somehow different
The way we talk and the way we think
Nevertheless, it's just the same love
Whether it's being me or not me.