BEST FRIENDS

i lay here eyes closed in desperate search of what to dream, tossing and turning while insomnia keeps threatening. i can't seem to remove you from my thoughts.
i imagine im walking with my heart torn in half placed under each sole as i stomp around carelessly with nowhere to go, but crazy. for all that seems wrong, feels right. and all that is not, happens to be worth more than what's been. so only with my back turned to you do i mouth the words my heart screams. i admit it and i cant help it... i do... no matter how well i pretend otherwise.
not only do i know better and believe all is more than perfect as is, sometimes, i wonder if it would be so bad to fall in love and you break my heart...because you not loving me, has been breaking my heart anyway.
so... i lay here, eyes closed and i dream.