I don't know what title should be given

I don't even know if I should be writing this down here, but I'm just writing because I don't know who to talk to as for now.
Some people might find it fake or sympathy seeking...If you do, you can leave (sorry, I might sound rude!)
It's a typical teenage problem, don't know if it's just my thinking or things around me are actually the way it seems to be. Time flies, till yesterday we were still little babies with mom dad always supporting us; but today.....we just depend on friends. By the way, what are friends? Ya Ya... those wordy meanings. I never find them true. Or is it my luck that I have never had the honour of experiencing what those meanings mean?
Not that I don't have friends but I prefer calling them people I know. why is it that every time I think I got someone who can make me realize what those wordy meanings mean, I always find myself back to where the world faces it's back at me?
I always do everything from my heart but why is it that people leave me when they don't want anything and remember me when in need?
I have tried to change myself from every angle to fit with everyone but why is it that it never works out for me?
I've kinda lost the trust on d word "Friendship". I guess it can never apply to my life.

p.s. People who have friends are really lucky!!!

I guess that's enough as for now...I must get back to my assignment
Will trouble the keyboard later on!!!

Buhbye :)