freedom

Freedom
I’m tired of holding back what I really want to tell you
These guys you have been with treat you like shit and I don’t like it
I have told you how I feel but you are scared to hurt our friendship
What if I think we would be best together and no one could tear us apart
But yet over and over again you let our friendship get in the way of our happiness

You don’t understand the pain I go through trying to control myself when you’re with him
Every time you need to talk I listen no matter when or where I am, I set everything aside
Why can’t you see that I am what you need, but you’re blinded by what you want
That time you told me you want a decent guy, I wanted to yell look in front of you
No matter what I do it never seems to be good enough for you and each time I fall farther from you

Every time I fall farther from you it seems like the world is crashing down on me
But to me I think you lay your head down at night really wishing I was your man
When all along after you talk to me all you do is laugh at me because I really think you like me
To you it’s not about listening, it’s about what I’ll buy you when I take you shopping later
If your love has to be bought then I don’t want to be buyer because your love to me is would be worthless

As I walk into the main building I wish I was the one you were running to, to have that good morning kiss
When I walk by you in school I wish I was walking with you so I could give you that last hug
The one that keeps you thinking of me all class period, keeping you anxious to see me when the bell rings
It has been eleven years in June we have known each other and I can’t tell you three simple words
You are the only reason I have strived to do these crazy things, because I just want to impress you

I’ve been searching for freedom, but the place that I have not looked is right before me
Having you walk by me while I hold my breath knowing you’re with the wrong man drives me crazy
I just want to grab your hand and twirl you into my arms and tell you that you are free from this point on
Thinking about you has turned into an obsession, because no matter where I turn, I see you
When I lay my head down to sleep every night I think to myself, why didn’t I tell you how I feel?

But after I started thinking to myself
I realized I’m better off without you
There is someone out there who’ll pay attention
Somebody that’ll care, that sees me for who I am
I can’t change who I am for who doesn’t like me

Things between us would never have worked
You are too boy crazy and I couldn’t trust you
I have wasted my time trying to earn your love
When I was blind to the one who loved me
Freedom has been staring me down all along

To all the guys that try and go for the most beautiful girl out there
All the while you go for that girl there is another girl going for you
While you are being shot down, look at who is there to pick you up
If having complete freedom means settling for a different girl
Then stop wasting your time with the one that laughs at you
Guys stop paying all your attention to the girls’ flaws because
If you do that then you will never have the one you deserve


To all the girls that catch the men that don’t see you
Stay strong because one day he will realize that you were there
Everything you put into having him will pay off, it takes time
Thanks to you we guys have someone to catch us whether we know it or not
After all the pain we put you through at first, we will make up for it
In the end you will be able to snuggle close to the man of your dreams
Do not worry about your flaws; with them we will love you

This poem may not stick to the normal rules of a poem
But does it have to stick to certain rules to be called a poem
From the bottom of my heart these words have been spoken
They have been spoken to all the guys and girls who lie
Lie to themselves and everyone around them because
In the end when they lay their heads down to sleep
If they are not with the one they love, then they are not free
Sometimes you have to go out of the box to be happy
That means that if having a lower class girl makes you happy
Then having her over the upper class girl is the best way to go
Or if having a nerd over a jock shows you guys can be sweet
Then take a chance with the nerd and see how far you two go
Have complete freedom with yourself before you have it with others

To me this poem speaks out to everyone
It may not have a specific rhyme or meter
But it has a deep meaning behind it
Every day I watch people get hurt
They are hurt because they make wrong choices
If you are a critic reading this poem
Please do not judge based on how it is written
Judge on the meaning behind each word
Look for the compassion or thought


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