The Darkness has won

I have tried to hide the pieces I want to keep secret
They hang there vile ugly discusting
Wanting and waiting to reveal me
And not the me I want them to see
The one they dont know that lurks
Those pieces are just flashes of what makes up me
Where I have been and who I have become
And that is what the begining of this fear tastes like
Sour and rough
What if they find out Im faking
Behind every smile a lie
Behind every right a wrong
To scary to dare give it utterance
What if they can see the face that glows in the dark
Like a million shooting stars
They wont understand They cant They wont try
I can feel the fear swelling in me now
It rises in my chest and brings with it a wave of panic
And realize what this is
It's the crack of this truth wideing growing beyond my control
Sucking me in by the ankles it's all around me engulfing me
It wont stop until it has drained me completely
Every last drop of me
It has its icy fingers around my neck
Until I stare into the blackness that it wants me too see
And It begins to devoure
I can feel it eating holes in my armor
The villians heart exposed at last
And it digs in I pick and I pull but to no avail
It sticks fast and sends in its magic
I hold on to my fear and for now it keeps me alive
Those flames of fear have kept me alive so long Im afraid to let go
I am dangling over the abyss now
Without a sound it starts ripping me apart
Im falling in endless space and before I hit the bottom Im just tatterd shreds of a person
Nothing Stillness
Now there are only sections of me some here there
Im not connected anymore
The Darkness has won
Its inside and its taking control of me
Im in that place now that no one talks about
The Blackest of Black
I can feel the darkness swimming in my head and my soul
The cold oily blackness snakes its way back and forth
Across my mind and across my heart
And thats when I let go of my fear and let it take me
The fight is gone from me
My feelings are now a block of Ice
Colors blur from gun metal gray to black
All the vividness in life is gone
Everything moves with a silent stillness
I have become hollow in every way
I can now walk with the dead