try and try again

i tried to run
but still i got left behind
i tried to stop time
and i tell you
it's like putting out the sun
i wanted to get away
i wanted to be alone
now i got what i want
why do i feel
like everything in my world
has suddenly gone wrong?
it's a wish run amok
it's a dream i chased
only to let go
it's the life i've always needed
but never got
it's what i deserve
nothing less and nothing more
but that doesn't make things
any easier said than done
life is bittersweet
especially with you gone
still i have to face it
if i want to be someone
i tried to cry
no tears came out
i tried to scream out
all my doubts
i tried to laugh, to smile
even when there was
nothing else, nothing left
to smile about
when it seems like
the clouds may part
at last on my darkened skies
the thunder comes
the lightning strikes
and crushes all my hopes
into the ground
so for now at least
just make believe
with me because i
need your eyes to see
i can't walk around
when i'm half-blind
i know you think i'm strong
but only god is never wrong
and with all my mistakes
i need a helping hand
for moving on
i tried to stand on my own
but i fell down
i tried sitting still
and listening
but i couldn't hear a sound
i tried to be
what i thought i should be
what they needed
what the world wants
but it just isn't me
i'll try to go on from here
to where i don't know
but i'll try not to make
the same mistake
of leaving my heart
on the floor