If You Only Knew

"Spot not here motherfucker so let me go. My daughter and I don't got shit to do with this" my mother cried out as three men tied her up to a chair. I stayed in my room scared as hell to what was about to go down. My mother screamed, begged, pleaded, and cried for her life, as one man took a saw out and went for her throat. I ran out crying for her life ass well but one of the soon to be dead men grabbed me and said "Shut up little bitch because u next" I cried even more. I saw the fear in my mother's eyes she yelled "Diamone I love you no matter what happen. God forgive me for my sins." Tears rolled down her cheek as she screamed while the man began sawing her head off. I screamed as blood ran down her neck she kicked and moved as he continued sawing at her throat. I stood in shocked as her body went limp and her head fell to my feet. The men left out I still stood in shock not knowing wat to do, I remember standing there for hours til the ambulance and police came. My eyes didn't want to believe what they had just seen, police was every where. They asked me questions but I stood with nothing to say with a blank stare. My life was over or in the blood on the walls. Spot came bursting the door with tears in his eyes, he ran and grabbed me and held on to me tightly as if he didn't want to let his little girl go. He dropped me off at aunt Dot house til he came back, she didn't seem to care about the situation because she didn't show emotions. I wouldn't expect her to she was always jealous of my mother, in fact she couldn't stand her. I hated living there with her, about a week later Spot came back but only to drop some money off and leave. After her funeral everything went by slower, it just didn't feel right. I seen less of Spot and more of trouble. I got expelled from school for fighting, and