a collection of poetry

To Die for the Sake of Life

I watch a shimmer of light bounce off the blade in my hand and think of the reason for living in the first place
I watch the kids around me from the shadows,
see them live their happy lives with the ones they love
I envy them and loath them with every fiber of my being
I hate them for it,
for being happy,
having friends,
living the life i am not aloud to have
I see the light of the moon reflected in the deep waters beneath me and slowly lay down on the diving board in my back yard
I watch the light of the stars shine down on me making the crimson red liquid flowing down my arm glimmer and shine
I see the stars above me flicker and fall to the ground
I listen to the trickle of my life drip into the pool below and suddenly i begin to float
I open my eyes, not entirely sure when i closed them in the first place, and marvel at the wonders of life beyond life 
turning around i looked at them all surrounding my old form and and watch as the red sea of life steadily grew
I looked on before the angels closed my eyes and then i was gone

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The Trigger to Salvation


Here i am falling into this dark obis surrounding me to the point where i can't breathe

Seeing the people i love all around me, i call out for help and watch as they all turn away

I look down to my hand to see the gun and the trigger to my salvation by my finger

Raising it to my head, i pull and wake with a start to see the moon glaring at me through the open window

As the taunting sound of thunder reaches my ears from the back of my mind, pulling me towards it

I run as fast as my legs will allow, away from the blackness threatening to again take over my thoughts

It surrounded my legs, preventing me from running any further and slowly dragged me back

The edges of my sight turned black as it captured me, preventing me from reaching the light i so desperately try to see every time

So here i am again, surrounded by this dark obis with the trigger to my salvation in my hand

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To Melt in Your Arms


what is it about you that makes me melt in your arms?

you like to yell
and call me names
you walked away
from our childish games

you ignore my thoughts
and put down my opinions
then crush my hope
with out condition

you brake my heart
when you go to see her
and make me cry
when i look in the mirror

but no matter what you do,
i still love you

what is it about you that makes me melt in your arms?

i'm always in danger,
an incredible cluts
but you're always there
to heal my cuts

i trust the untrustworthy
and get us in trouble
but there you are
expecting my fumble

i always crack jokes,
trying to be cunning
you say you hate it
but i hear you laughing

you don't seem to know
that with just one look
i can read you
like a book

what is it about you that makes me melt in your arms?

you always hide
and push me away
you're bitter and angry
every day

i know of your past,
much more than you think
i see what they do
and never once blink

i know why you are
the way you are
why every day
you seem so far

i'm not going to ask for
all of your heart,
my only wish
is to just have part