Confusion

    I'm confused, confused about life, school, my purpose,
sexuality, I'm not even sure about how to feel about
anymore.  The only feeling that comes to mind is confusion.

    As far as confusion about life is concerned; I don't even
know.  It's like I'm not even inside of my body.  I'm to the point
now where, sometimes I don't even care. When deep down in
my heart I really do.

    Now school, school is a different story.  I'm confused what
path I'm going to take to continue my education after hight school.
Music is where my heart is and thats what type of stuff I want to
continue in as go to and through college.  On, the other hand, 
I have a love for computers, and I want to persue that also.
I don't know, it's difficult to explain.

    I am also confused about my purpose in life.  I know that 
it takes time to find you purpose, but I haven't gotten any signs
or hints about what it may be.  I pray and ask God all the time
what it may be, but I know that i needs time.

    Ha!  Now here's a good one, my sexuality.  Very few people in
my personal life know this, but I am bi-sexual and have been for about
two to two and a half years.  I'm extremely confused about this.  I often wonder if it is just a phase, but I pretty much know that it is not.  I just came
out about bein bi-sexual in January 2008.  So far, the few people in my life that do
know are very confortable with it.  I'm not quite sure if I
am ready
to tell my family
yet, but I will tell tthem in due time.