Deadly Butterfly Chronicles: Vol, One

Anna


I look into the window pane
Watching the snow fall deeply into the ground
Hoping the sun would shine
Completely drawn back from Faith

It was pushed
Forced upon my soul
What have I become?
What have you done?

It's a different life
Difference in the air
And these dreams aren't clear
I'm so confused and lost

I became Empty
No thoughts
No feelings

In my mind
Sitting alone
Sitting next to myself

In the closet
I sat on the shelf
I was forgotten
Remembered by dust

Red ribbons in my hair
My face painted with care
I was the lonely Porcelain doll
With tears and all

I seen you
Years by years
And you began to change
From someone so innocent
To the creature of the Darkness

Suffering from neglect
I never knew how you felt
Those eyes searched in the darken closet
I wondered what you have lost

You look in my direction
And smiled
"I remember you."
And I received a hug
And yet, I still feel empty

You kept me next to your heart
And wore the necklace I once had worn
And suddently the door was torn
Those hands grabbed you as you scream

You let go
As your hope and faith would
And I crashed unto the floor
And you dragged through the door

I never knew what to do
Or what happened to you

Again, I was forgotten
And remembered by dust
I was the lonely porclain doll
Tears and all

Days have passed
I have cried my tears
And given up life
Those tears filled my cup
My empty heart

Through the window pane
The snow fell
Covered the confusion of my heart
Covered the pain of you

I'm numbed by the cold
Waiting for your return

One night
It was dark
And I heard unfamilar voices
They echoed in the hall

There was a man
A woman
A girl child
And she reminded me of you

They carried nothing
But blankets with holes
I felt a gentle hand
I was carried by a man

"Ah, look Amielé,
She was alone.
Be her friend
And heal her wounds

"Becareful, my child
For she is broken and hurt
She need love and care
A friendship to share"

He handed me to her
She carefully placed me in her arms
Rocked me back and forth
Covered in kisses and tears.

She calls me her Rosalina
She asked me if that was alright
I think she heard me
She whispered my name in my ear

"Papa! Rosalina says 'Thank you'
She was all alone.
The girl that loved her was grabbed.
Thats why the door was torn."

She kissed my forehead
And said "It's alright, Anna.
Your name is safe,
A secret locked in my heart."

I think she really sees me
Recovered from the dark
She was humming a song
And yet, she can barely hang on.

A new life
I have been reborn.

I was the lonely porcelain doll
Tears and all
Lost and found
Forgotten and remembered

Stories i will tell
My girl wasn't well
The would recoverd me
Hasn't eaten
Hasn't been warm.

I think she heard me
Cheering her on
She looks in my direction
And smiled
And laughed

"You're so foolish!
So näive!
One day, You'll have another girl!
Someone like me..."

She fell asleep
And her parents cried
As they screamed her name

She never woke

Her father looked at me
And kissed my face

"You're coming with us."

I traveled in his arms
He said we are leaving
To a new land
A new home

He never let me go

We travel on foot by land
And many days have passed
His wife doesn't look well as we travel

"We are halfway there"
He said to us as we touched the boat
"We are going to Amerika!"
And his wife's eyes grew in fear.

They slept in the dark corner
Filled with people
It was crowded
But he held on to me tightly

We landed
And pushed through
His wife cried
"I wish she was here!"

Her father saw a child
A young girl
He saw how sad she was
But no tears fell

"Where's your Mama, Little One?"
"I don't know"
"Then we shall wait with you
Young girls shouldn't be alone."

Three days have passed
And the child's mother hasn't shown.

In the darkness
The child screamed in pain of loneliness
"She's never made it, did she?"

He gave me to her
"What is your name?
We'll be your parents."
"Anna..."
"This is Rosalina."

"No..

"Her name is Anna."

She found me once, again

I was hidden in the darken closet
Alone and scared
Remembered only by dust

Red ribbons in my hair
My face painted with care
I was the lonely porcelain doll
Tears and all





The Wanderer


My love for you is the endless sea
It dreams and waves the memories away
Threading them into a pearl necklace
Going one by one

I patiently waited for your hand
Gentlely holding mone
Shall I leave my childhood behind?
These doors are opened so widely
Enough for two instead of one
I shall bear my pain no more

There is a movie
Only I can see
About a life I want
That I need

I walk upon the shore
Picking up every shell
Each one contained a soul
As does our bodies

I stepped into the ocean
And lived once more



Echoes


My voice echoes in my dream
As if I was in the cavern
Life became nothing, but a dream
Echoing my memories
Writing my memores into a book

A Journal of Life

Voices singing my name
Becoming a part of me as the rain wash my body
Becoming pure and cleansed
Wanting to be free and unjudged

And guided to sucess

No matter what I do
There is always a war inside
Killing and defeating the purpose of life
The idea of living in the light of comfort

They just echoe in the cavern

Life became darkness and death
And this war would never end
Wounded and Terrorized
Life would never looked the same

Never living in the same way



Anger


Words
Those are my words
Used in someone's mouth
Instead of mine
This pisses me off

Far and completely

This isn't me

The person who is writing
Whose anger is written

Those were my words

In anger





Secrets


Questions racing through my mind
These are nothing, but secrets
Secrets that need to be revealed
To show who we are
We are Humans, no?
And we say what race we are
When there is only one race

We are beings of power, mind, and soul
Creators of machines
But what are we exactly?

We are nothing, but animals
Fighting to be alive
Survival of the fittest

So what are we?
Compare to our works
We are mindless
Mindless people that dont appericate what we have
Can't appericate the art that lives around us
The Life that Breathes
This Nature

We are mindless
Is that our purpose?
The purpose of life
Which I call the mode of existance

Question racing through our minds
These are nothing but secrets



Goodnight


Every finger touches
As every lips kiss
Like all fingertips do
Every hand is graceful
As dancers' feet
Grazing and gliding across the floor

As a person
Every hand meets a new
And falls in love

How long?
How long can one hand wait?
Longing for that hand
Longing so much that he cries
Wanting to look into her eyes
Wanting to touch her fingertips
Waiting to kiss her lips

To give her that goodnight kiss



Raindrops


Tears fall upon mu window sill
This world seems to stand still
Every drop falls unto my face
All those tears
The rain traced

The world seems to disappear
In the middle of nowhere
I am lost and confused
This world I began to lose

In the dark
I cried
These tears fall down with my fears
My Love, why aren't you here
Next to my heart
Holding me close

These paths, I can only choose one

I hear the rain calling my name
Just the same
So are you



Night


Black leather skies
Filled with golden coins
I heard a prayer
A young child's voice
Sweet sounds of innocence and purity
I don't know who it was
But it was a girl who cried to God
She loved him so
And asked for no forgiveness
For she never wanted to bother him so

What an awe she was
And now her tears became mine
For I had cried in remembrance
That my cup begin to fill

This night was like no other night
This night was pure
This night was lit with hope

Now that I had to remember

That little was me



Despair


If I close my eyes
Will this pain I feel erase
Will i feel it through my life after life
Will there be anymore tears

Crying onto my tombstone
I know that I'm all alone
There is no one there
And no one will care

Unfortunately,these tears can never fall
As I'm staring at your blank wall
Wondering if I will disappear

Unlike this world
I'll be no longer here

In a matter of time
I'll break from these binds
And hide into the darkness once more



Father


Now, I hear your voice
Calling and yelling for me
Wanting me to come

I shivered and shuddered
The thought of return

My eyes see through the darkness
My hand can stand the heat
Can stand the cold

I can live through anything
But you



Listen


Listen to your voice
That is hidden within you
Listen to yourself

Choices can be made
It is a matter of fault
A movement of Fate

A Faith of our truth
We tried to fight against it
Becoming someone else

Blacken hearts of ice
Darken of our misery
Lost to our maze

Listen

Just listen



War Call
the prayer


Voices in the night,
Give us our might!
With strength on our side
The enemies shall hide.
With fear in their eyes,
Their blood is our prize!

The ending of this War,
Our swords and spear shall tore!
Flesh of Men! 'O, hear our cry!
This is the day you'll die!
Continue this horror with terror and hate,
Then your hopes and dreams will become taint.



Do you


I hear your voice
Soft
Fragile
I'm scared to touch your face
It' so beautiful
So different
Your eyes laugh at me
Why? I do not know
I want to hold your hand
But everyone is watching me
Silently
Deadly
I scream inside
Calling your name
Telling you to look at me
To protect me

Do you love me as you say?

I'm scared to leace reality behind
Should I follow you as I said I would
Today is not like Yesterday
As Tomorrow is not like Today

I love you
Like I say I do
When you say you do
Do you really love me?

Tell me



Red


Hot
Burning my finger
Trying to catch my pain
Bearing it alone

It's so unbearable

Scorching my fingertips
There is pain that bleeds
And tears that falls

Tears can never drop

The blood that runs through my body
Leaving me one way
To let my pain go free




The Last Two


I am just like you
I am lost
I am confused

I really don't know what to do

Yet
We stand here on this deserted road

It's silent and bare
No one knows this place here

No once can hear us scream

The sky is empty

The lake is dried

And the grass had died

I searched and frailed around
I screamed and cried
There is no one around

we are last alive

we are the last two



Cut


Only if you can not let me be
This cut can never heal
Without love and care
It will always be there

Red and ever flowing

My tears will remember
This betrayl
This unforgiven fault
Your broken promises

My tears fall into the sink
I stared into the mirror

What makes me want you so?
What causes me much worry?
Why do I care?

I feel so free
So much like a bird
Streaching my wings

I never felt so down
So much down to the ground
Falling into the darkness
Screaming as every hand grabs

My voice is silenced
Yet, you still catch me
Grasping my hand

Only if you can stay with me
Never letting me be



Deadly Butterfly


Time is running short
Yet, I fear there is nothing I can do
I want your hand in mine
But, we're running out of time

I see the butterfly
The symbol of change
The symbol of beauty

Why do I feel so insecure without you
Will you miss me?
Will you forget me?
Will i be forgotten as I forgotten them?
My old life

This butterfly flies above
and around me

I want to catch it
Make it mine

Beautiful wings
Beautiful butterfly

Don't fly away
Stay and keep me company
Two years is far too long

My Deadly Butterfly