Emotion

Emotion is a very bewildering and startling non-physical phenomenon, especially the most unpredicted, for example the melancholic excitement or jumpy excitement which, also, in this case, is a sort of saddening one, though not too gentle, sometimes resulting in the physical self-abuse. This rather disturbing type of thrill, arousing jumpiness, which may come from nervousness, fear or excitement; an optimistic joy or rather pessimistic sadness, is a very confusing sentiment. Though through the subconscious process to produce the upsetting thrill, there is, in this situation, a bit or perhaps much joyfulness, the result is a bit, if one uses this circumstance, understandable, though at the same time paradoxically incomprehensible, and the feeling itself is, also, quite puzzling. The little insight of comprehending is not why, not what, but the how we feel this emotion; which is sometimes the weight of a deep thrill on your mind, causing your eyes to instinctively close slightly, the so much motion in your chest, causing tiredness, yet not the sleepy type. This is as much as I can explain of the phenomenon of this remarkable and eccentric feeling, and of course there is much more to it, but me being 13 years old, cannot explain it. One might think that he can understand why we have a feeling, but I disagree. He can go one by one deeper and deeper, clarifying ever step that caused the one after, which can go infinitely, and yet in every of the steps, your enlightening speculation may have a fault which one later discovers or does not. But this is still just the ‘how’ it came to be that this step took place; we do not know why it is that the result took place. As for what, one can distinguish between different emotions, giving it a different description, but feeling is always complicate. For example, every type of sadness one has, is always different from the other.
Although there is so much bewilderment in feeling, the process and the result, is, in spite of the bafflement, perfection.