A way to die

Changing from addiction to recovery

Living in the world of E
How'd I ever think I was free
Not the jails and the rehab
But the bonds of drugs I had

Violently sucked into the rave scene
Knowing what pain could really mean
I though that I had it all
Little'd I know I had to fall

My eyes like headlights in the night
Shaking, knowing my heart wasn't right
Always the chance it was fake
Unknown consumption, the risk to take

Research chemical or straight wrong
I knew it wasn't worth it all along
But addiction is a tricky card
Qutting really is that hard

Burning this and smoking that
Popping pills, melting fat
Tricked myself saying it was fun
I knew long agothat was done

Doing it just to maintain
Counting the drugs and holes in my brain
Finally sober, mind clear
No locked doors, living in fear

Still in the system, what a joke
No more pills or crack to smoke
Lungs almost clean, yet
The resin coughs I'll never forget

An ounce a day to get me by
A half of coke to keep me high
Still no pleasure, what a lie
Just on the road, a way to die