The Ex File

    -I'm Ready-
I'm ready
to lock the doors
turn out the lights.
I'm ready
turn up the radio
make sure
the cat's on the bed.
I'm ready
to end another day
without you.
I'm ready
to wake up
to anotherday
without you by my side.

    -I want to-
hold your hand.
kiss your lips.
run my fingers through your hair.
feel your hands on my skin.
have your body next to mine.
know that you still think of me.

    -Been told...-
...I'm in it for the long haul.
Nothing wrong with that.
...that I'm a bitch.
Not much I can say about that.
...I'm nothing but the gum on your shoe.
Can't argue with them there.
...You're not good enough for me.
Can't help but laugh in their face.
I ought to be over you by now
been eight months
but just can't help
thinking of you.

    -Blissful Kiss-
Hand in hand lying next to you
looking up into the stars.
You tug my hand and kiss it gently.
I respond and kiss yours too.
It's been so long since your lips touched mine.
You kiss my cheek and search my soul.
I squeeze your hand,
you squeeze mine back.
Again I feel that euphoric bliss.
You kiss my lips and pull away,
just to see if I'm still ok.
I feel your breath hot on my face,
"Fuck this!" I'm thinking
and press my lips to yours,
you're warm and accepting just like I remember.
That night was what I'd been waiting for.
Laying there on her front lawn,
you took my heart
and made it yours.
Again.