have i forgotten to smile ?

have i forgotten to smile


I tried for hours sitting
infront the mirror
to move these 14 muscles
of my face in a way
it would look like a smile
Did I really forget to smile?
Was there nothing left in my life
Tha,t could make me smile?
no joy, no happiness,
no fun, no glee,
Or was it I who forgot
to realize the beauty
of things and emotions,
the beauty of expressions,
the beauty of small beginnings?
Have I really forgotten
to sense the sweet smell of a rose
or the serinity of the morning sun
Am I totally plasticised by the responsibilities
and monotony of my life
In all these years of running after life
have I left my real self behind?
have I turned to some thing new?

I used to be a girl who
used to dream
live and rejoice every moment that she lived
the girl who could dance to the tunes of rain
who would climb up a hill
just to see the setting sun
climb down again to feel the waves beneath
a girl whose smile was as fresh as dew

now I stand here
trying to smile
trying hard for those fourteen muscles to move
trying hard to unlearn things
that made me so dull
complicated my thoughts
and ruined my hear
t I want to smile not only with my lips
which bare my teeth for the sake of it
I want to smile with all my face
with all my soul and heart with it