Not the only time

Not the only time
she threatened
to take the life right out of me
Not the only time
she nearly has
Not the only time
I've had people ask
if I was jumped because of the brusis
Not the only time
I've cryed myself to sleep
Not the only time
I've thought to take
my own life so she counldn't
Not the only time
I'd laugh to cover my tears
Not the only time
I gave into her wishes
because it hurt so bad
Not the only time
she hurt me in public
Not the only time
everyone turned their cheek
for me
Not the only time
I'd hide from her anger
Not the only time
I'd wish I could cause her the same pain
Not the only time
I wished I had cancer
instead of being hurt by her
Not the only time
I'd joke and say she hurts
me because I'm all around better than her
Not the only time
I've elaborately planned
her death
Not the only time
I'll wish she was hit by a train