Alone

You say you love me, you say you care
Yet I'm left in complete abandonment with no one there
I sit and wonder why I wait for you at all,
Is it because without you I wouldn't be able to stand as tall?

The mere thought of being alone brings a quiver to my spine
I'm standing still in this quiet place, a home no longer mine
My eyes wander from the chipped paint on the walls to the cracked tile floors
Pacing frantically though this darkened hallway and out the door

I've given you your space and time to grow and change
But I know either way it goes, your world remains the same
Everyone will go away and leave me all alone
In this haunted bedroom I can no longer call my own

I sit here in the silence
Tick tock...tick tock...tick tock
Chirp...chirp...chirp
Drip...drop...drip...drop

Tears are suppressed from my eyes, since I refuse to cry for myself
I'm not used to being alone, I do not like me
And I'd much rather prefer the presence of someone else

I'm growing tired of being left inside this prison
Moreso within this cage
You tie me down when I should be free
And it fuels me with a burning rage

When you are here I'm alone and beyond your reach
I wish I could say everyone made a difference
But that is not my lesson to teach

You won't make it any better
I've numbed you and others out
I don't want to feel your hurt
I can't stand to hear your angered voice yell at me or shout

But most of all I can't bear this vast emptiness that stretches deeper, and wider as the seconds pass by
There's nothing else left for me to do but swallow my wretched solitude; weep and pray for an angel to divert my suicide