Where did my Mother go?

Years gone by have left behind a distant memory,
Some of which at night still haunt me
And with the morning sun I wake
Hoping my mind made a mistake.

For at night I am brought back to that place
Praying that my footsteps won’t be traced
Then that icy feeling settles in the air
I know now that myself I need to prepare

For The lonely night that falls ahead
Leaves me to come from my bed
To find a home where love is felt
So my aching heart no longer melts

My soul leads me to your arms
Where here I feel safe, there is no harm
Though the pain was not physical
My heart felt the beating of words so brutal

No guidance, no love, a family torn apart
Leaves an everlasting bruise in my heart
One that sits in the back of my head
Fighting to control the urge of screaming I dread

The death of a family nearing closer
If only the choices made were nobler
We wouldn’t be in this situation
Scars are left and relationships threatened

What took so long for you to realize
That knocking on your door was your demise
Always fretting, always angry and on edge
Left your children sitting on a wedge

When did a powder become more important than me?
Why couldn’t you handle life and the responsibility?
Did I make it to difficult, did I make it to tough?
I have finally had it, I have had enough.

Don’t you see the evil shadow you have cast?
And the years you missed spending in the dark that passed?
Why did you do it, was it worthwhile?
When your children didn’t see you or your comforting smile?

I’m happy to know you have finally come clean,
The drug was killing you, your death was foreseen.
Please don’t ever go down that shadowy path,
Don’t succumb to Satan’s wrath.

I love you Mom, no more tragedy
No more hurt, no more pain, I hope you agree
I do not want to go back to that place,
Please just show me a mother’s caring face.