Happy is a Lie

Why Do i feel so alone?
Why can't i shake that moan?
What have i done thats so wrong?
What makes me suffer for so long?

How can life be so cruel?
Fate and luck, are always a constant duel.
I can never seem to find that one,
Crushing my hopes all again, start to done.

A roller coaster that never ends,
But it seems that there are alot more decends.
Then ups on this thrill ride,
I just want it to stop so i can go and hide.

I don't wanna have to go thru these agonys again,
I thought you were suppost to be my friend.
But you lied and made me fell such pain,
Like a bad mess, u left such a stain.

Something that will never go away.
Cause in my mind its always here to stay.
For it seems to never fail,
My life always end up in one big hell.

Happy, im starting to believe is only a word used for false hopes,
Just something in our langauge to help in the procees of learning to cope.
But its not real and never will exist,
Im thinking to myself, as i ball up my fist.

Another lie to go with the rest,
But this one always gets the best,
Of everyone who believes it so,
Although it will never presents itself, fools thinks it someday will though.

But i know the truth and im always aware,
No one in this life really cares,
About anyone, but themselves and their wants,
Im tired of being th nice guy people like to hunt.

Just so i can get pushed around,
And always be put right back down.
So everyone can take advantage too,
But im tired of it all, and im thru.

I don't wanna look anymore for that one person so cool,
I don't wanna search no more for that one who doesn't treat me as a fool.
For no matter how hard i try, my wings will never fly,
For their always clipped, just seems like im waiting to die