Brad Pitt

Meet Joe Black is on. I used to watch it a lot. The greatest part about it is I had this group of guy friends in San Diego who loved it too. It's a movie you wouldn't think of quoting, but we did. I am going to watch it today. There are not many programs on TV I actually sit to watch. I used to rely on television. I liked the programs that could just be filler shows. I am embarassed to say I can usually rely on the the disney channel. "That's so rave" especially. I don't watch the news. I don't like reality. or superficial shit on tv. shit on MTV who watches MTV? i used to i haven't in a year. or e i used to, but I couldn't give two shits about what celebrities are up tp.
an ad for a nes movie Babel just came on, now playing. Brad Pitt is in it. I want to see it. I will probably see it by myself.
What is it about Brad Pitt that fascinates me. he used to bore me. then i watched oceans eleven and listened to his commentary. he is funny and smart. that makes him fascinating. then I look at him and he smiles. i smile. he is the shit. i have always liked movies he was in. i love fight club. i always have. i find ed norton intriguing he says whatever he is thinking i relate to him. i think he looks hot all beatin up with bags under his eyes. i don't tell many people i like fight club. especially girls. i want to leave the house but meet joe black is on. how can i leave when i can spend two quality hours with brad pit. i like to watch meet joe black. i like it. truly like it its funny because one women is obsessively talking about flowers and parties and nobody gives a shit. she keeps talking, nobody is interested. it sucks to talk and have that person not give a god damn what you are saying. someone will care.this woman keeps talking shes excited. nobody cares. she's probably filling her life with this bullshit that she thinks keeps her happy. all this bullshit. it's exciting finding stuff that I like. i talked to my dad today. he loves mirrors and tweezers as much as i do. we talk about drinking. he drank every night for a long time. but he never drank alone with a fifth just to pass out. i watched ali g the other night. that fuckers funny. he did this bit on addiction and talked about pringles i laughed out loud. i tell my dad i hate doing laundry. he acts surprised. i long to be a businessman and have all my laundry done, my cleaning done. I like doing it because it is a time filler. and I love clean clothes i only wear clean clothes I have all these clothes and I only wear the same ones. weekly. whats the point of having all these clothes. there is none. i hate having glasses. i don't need them all the time. but they are a pain in the ass. i always lose them. I am thinking of getting one of those dangly things for myself so my glasses can be at my disposal all the time. it is cool not giving a fuck what people think of me. i care in arizona. i feel pressure that I don't feel in salt lak. the other night it was fifty degrees outside. i was hot i wore a tank top. people looked at me funny i didn't care. i fucking love tank tops they are so comfortable. im all about comfort. i don't wear underwear. i don't wear a bra. i would have my boobs cut completely off they are a pain. i wish i had enough balls to shave my head. it is completely perfect. no hair to keep out of my face. its perfect. maybe one day ill do it. i am no that secure with myself. i don't wear what i want in az or at treatment. i hide my body. people comment -you are too thin, blah blah blah
guys are only interested because they want to have sex. the maintenence guy saw my picture and said i need to gain 20 lbs. then i will be perfect. fuck him, he hangs out with me thinking he can get something from me. maybe sex? maybe money? i see right through him. i cant wait for him to leave my houses, but i needed his phone. i just left my houses with no shoes on. i would not wear shoes all the time. i got worms one time when i didn't have shoes on. my butt kept on itching at night. i wiped it and looked i dont know why i do that but i do. i wonder if other people do anyways not anyway, i don't care i looked and there were these little things squirming around. sick. but kind of cool. they only came out at night. i got some antibiotics and they were gone in 2 days. my dad talks about the hotel complaint. "the room was in her name, blah blah. i do forget about other people. he also lectures me about brushing my teeth. i hate brushing. i love to floss though. i went to the dentist. five cavities i have never had cavities i have to start brushing my teeth dammit. i wish the hygenist lived in my house. she could do it for me. i just read some Bukowski. he has some good ass stuff. stuff i relate to he talks like me too. its neat. i can't believe you can get famous with being honest. is honesty so rare. to me he is not a poet. hes an honest guy who i want to talk to i wonder if he is still alive. i bought his book called open all night. i go through it page by page. im going to the bookstore now. there are four shirts i love. my brothers brophy t-shirt so comfy worn and washed. Athens t-shirt from mike usa t-shirt from mike. sigma chi tshirt from my brother. all my other t shirts are just t shirts i have like these four tshirts my mom got me in matzatlan and i laugh out loud when i look at them. part of me hates everything my mom has bought me. i wish i could just be naked all the time. when i get home at night i set my temp to just right and enjoy being naked. i can't find my rainbow flip flops although i have 3 pair i only wear one. my pair i have had for three years. i go out to smoke, i have to return some movies. they were due a week ago. i don't know why anyone rents them. i wish i had a collection of movies at my house. then i could watch what i want to watch. i probably will rent some movies today. i have to put on my New balance its cold out. i have three pair. only wear one. meet joe black is still on. i can't believe i am leaving the house with this movie is on. i have to take out my garbage. i hate taking out the trash. my mom takes out the trash. i passed by the gym and saw people working out. i used to work out to lose weight for some guy. i don't see the point of working out. i think it's because i don't want to face the reality that i am completely out of shape and need to stop smoking.