some of my poems

Your Gifts

I want to always feel this way,
To never let this go,
I always want to keep you happy,
I hope that it will always show,

You are my husband,
My partner for life,
Through good and bad,
Through accomplishments and strife,

I know that I worry you with my mental sickness,
My thoughts and misgivings,
I just pray that you will always love me,
You give me the will to keep living,

You make me whole,
And keep me from losing all I have gained through you,
All I have gained in learning to love again,
Learning to trust and believe all you say and do,

My god you have saved me over and over again,
Gave me courage and motivation to keep me sane,
You keep my life exciting with out drama,
Yet it is all but plain,

My love runs deeper than any mistrust and pain,
That anyone has ever caused me,
Or the lies that deceived my eyes,
Through the deception I can finally see,

These feelings are eternal,
They grow each day,
I will always be at your side,
I swear I will never stray,

You listen to and console me,
Never have you turned away from my cries,
Instead you hold on tighter,
And convince me to try,

I have not had the motivation to try to be happy,
In what seems like an eternity,
Instead eternity is the time we will live together,
In this now calm emotional sea.

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When I first saw you,
I saw something that intrigued me,
Something that I knew that I must have,
A love that I hoped would fill me completely,

This feeling that I had discovered so quickly,
Scared me to almost the point of letting go,
But I held on to you,
Tenderness you began show,

I have found everything that I could ever want,
I know this when I look into your eyes,
Eyes that show love I didn't deserve,
A love that can never be disguised,

I am amazed at how lucky,
I have been to find,
The love of my life,
The one to be forever mine,


Time Bend
I love to look out the window,
And watch the time float by,
I can see it on the breeze,
And feel it in the sky,

I like to close my eyes,
Spinning around the wind flowing around me,
As I drift off into my sanctuary,
The field in my sea,

I hear the birds sing their songs,
Mixing with the time on the wind,
Time almost seems to stop,
Or rather maybe bend,

I even watch the bugs,
Fly in their busy work,
They seem to like to run into things,
Though they work they are not alert,


I wonder what drives them to their business,
Is it the impending loss of time?
What ever the case may be,
Their diligence is sublime,

There is so much beauty,
in the small things on the earth
If you only look and intake
it's true immessurable worth

useless feelings
There are new things here now,
things that i don't understand,
i have a loving family,
and wonderfully kind and loving man,

The sadness usually comes,
when i am alone or there has been a significant fight,
but this time it is nothing,
there is only tears that fall in the night,

I hate being confused,
it makes the tears fall even more,
it makes me want to close up,
and seal my door,

I shall wait for relief,
maybe to no avail,
though i am assuming it will all fade,
but i just can't tell