I am merchandise

I was wondering why this fan of mine was telling me I shouldn’t write anything gloomy or less than gorgeous. After corresponding with her and my friend in San Diego for a couple of days, I have come to this conclusion:



She was idolizing me! She saw me as a rich, happy wife (=madam in our language) and she hated to see me as anything less than happy or glamorous.



Now that I am a published author, I do have fans but



I am being idolized, I am being consumed, I am being alienated.



This is what getting published and getting fans brings:



They take away your image out of you; they idolize you in any way they want. If you are not living their fantasy, they can complain and even accuse you. I am merchandise! I knew the theory: but now I know it for fact from my own experience.



Well, it’s been less than 2 weeks: I am glad I have realized this at this early stage!