Climb

I do not wish to change you
That was never my choice to make
Time and time again
I let you back in
When anyone else would have gone
Still you take my heart
Close your eyes
And pray it away

What if I should go?
Gone for eternity
Would you forever be grateful?
You never fought for me?
All the minutes, hours, days, months, and years
Flew right by

All that while I was silent
Almost in meditation
Quietly surrendering in darkness
Never think for a moment
That my heart grew cold
From the solitude you gave me

I had been thinking
Long and hard
Drifting back and forth
Through memories
I always wished
I could hold one in my hand
So years from now
I could feel it
Up close
Just like it was happening again

I have been busy
Questioning myself
Your motive
Almost awaiting disaster
That I know so well
Like all the rest in my past
Things that didn’t last

Still we always ended up
In each others arms
My spirit always got back up
after you pushed it to the ground
Even then
I sucked in my pride
and exhaled my heart
unto your lips
I never doubted it
Even when I doubted myself


Many have fought
To steal my heart
Yet I just handed it over to you
Without hesitation
I hear people talk about their love
and the things they share
I wonder why envy
Hasn’t made me leave you
Knowing that most
Never make it past the
Places we’ve already been

Standing alone now
Looking down at the words
I scribbled on this paper
Make as much sense
as we did
but they were meant to be written
spoken and heard

Maybe I will be climbing the mountain
Pretending that you are waiting at the top
So when I decided to make my way back down
The rocks won’t seem as sharp
The road won’t feel so long
With the thought of you next to me
Then maybe I will find out why
You had to make the climb so hard
so painful and long
If you couldn’t be there to
give me band aids.