What went wrong?

I can’t find the words any longer,
To describe what happened, how it changed.
How to fix it all,
Without making a wrong call.
My friends say it’s not too late
But I can’t seem to find a way at all.

We used to be friends,
We used to be close.
What changed? What happened? I don’t know.
How? Why? Where or what?
All these questions remain unanswered like a plea to the god.

I don’t have the answers
I don’t know what to do,
What to say or how to make the right move?
I want to continue this friendship
But I don’t know how to do.

I keep telling myself,
That you would be better off without me,
A few days, a week, a month
Then you won’t be needing me.

Your life would be so much better,
No more friendly fights, nor any useless chatter.
But how can I leave you like this?
Like a dying fish.

Of course you are not dying,
Of course you don’t need me.
But ditching you like this,
Is making me feel guilty.

But you scare me, you frighten me,
Your attitude is becoming like shit!
And I feel like I am taking the hit.

Why do you always have to argue?
Why do you have to support her?
Are you my best friend?
Or are you her God mother?

Maybe it’s me, maybe it's you,
But both of us don’t have a clue
When you ask me, I am under too much tension,
But when I try to tell you
You don’t pay any attention.

I am powerless, this situation is hopeless.
Its like a stupid confusing game of chess.
If this keeps going on for long,
Our friendship will be long gone.
We will chat and hang out together,
But we won’t be the friends we used to be, any more.

My first attempt at poems :) So please suggest any improvements.