Falling yet, again.........

Life is going on in a blur.....
I wish someone could help me'cause I'm falling........falling yet again...
but putting all I feel in words is an impossible task.
I try....but I seem to be falling again..
someone should listen.
I feel guilty for feeling what I feel
Is it wrong?
Is it right?
I dunno.
Living each day is a torture
Will I survive???
Maybe I'll because humans've an instinct to..........
I don't want to commit suicide because that is an act of cowardice.........or so everyone says........
I know people are there.........trying
Maybe I should too
But how and to whom should I go to....
I am a superb actor, and I can't put what I feel in words.......................
With a sigh...........after a long monotonous day, I go to bed..........
And then I'm falling yet, again......................