ChanceTo Dance

With lies, deceit & pain,
non-deserving loved ones feel the strain,
Morality grabs me by the throat,
"But is this love?!" I try to croak,
Love does not happen overnight,
It grows, It flourishes, THEN takes flight.
STOP!! DON'T DO IT!!
My heart screams out.
Why not? I say, I have no doubt.
A closer look and you may see,
Can this love withstand eternity?

Petty differences fill my head,
What's he trying to prove? they said,
He couldn't possibly love ME, He's fake,
He'll steal my heart and watch it's break.
He unknowingly pushes me aside,
as others leap to be his guide.
I could be jealous, yes......I know.
I've thought of this, I'm needy, So??

I had a breakdown long before,
who to be, what road to explore.
The end is nothing but myself,
No displays of greatness,
No trophy-laiden shelf.
I'll know my life was lived for me,
Not for someone else you see.

Having faults is only human,
I feel no need to be the best.
Perfection not a goal of mine,
What matters most; within my chest.

A being soul that craves emotion,
Yet finding it a "weakness",
I'm learning that sometimes it good,
To cry when someone sneezes.
I sincerely miss your laughter,
Your humor, Your arms, Your eyes.
I miss the person I'd barely see,
When the guardedness subsides.

So I run back to what I know,
Scared to take that chance.
Hoping, praying that down this road,
We'll get a chance to dance.