connection

Not sure what to say this time. Wow after all this time staying to myself and healing my heartbreak i go and make a giant fool of myself. Why would he think of me as more than friends? He never said otherwise. Just fun and games nothing more. Surprising response even tho i knew feelings can be one sided. There is no guarantee that the one you fall for will feel the same. Totally understandable.... Even then an honest answer is always welcome because it's better than being  left in the dark, to wonder what the other person thinks and feels, even if it's what you suspects. Just hoping our friendship isn't ruined forever.

It's not funny but somehow i just laugh at it, seeing that about the same time i'm telling him how i feel about him i find out that he likes my friend.......She's taken and uninterested although crushing on him as she told me. I'm free and likes him, he likes her and she's spoken for go figure. That's just how the world works at times. Somehow no one in this circle gits what they want.

It sucks when you think about how unfair the situation really is. Life goes on for me, I wont give up on finding a love that will mean more to me than fun and games.