a poem of domestic violence. a lucky escape |
I feel my heartbeat pounding, as I hear you open the door, I know I've done the wrong thing, I know i've angered you more, I shouldn't have let you hear me, as I cried from all the pain, physical and emotional, it hurts me just the same, I swear one day I'll leave you, to live my life so free, I will find the strength somewhere, outside these bars around me. You smash the things around me, to make your point come clear, I didn't do what you asked me, I wish I could just disappear... If its that I'm disobedient, why is it you stay? To crumble me to pieces? To stand on me where I lay? You say my friends are enemies, they turn me against you, so I cut them out of my life, to protect and defend you, Because we protect each other, as you tell me each day, you're the only one that loves me, in every single way. But you hurt more than anyone, my heart is black and blue, you don't want to protect me, you want to protect you. You tell me I can't do it, you say I have no one else,but we both know it's not about me, you're talking about yourself, I have no one around me, it's you I breathe each day, but I know my friends and family are waiting for that day, The day that I say no, and realise it's my luck, today is the day I leave you, today I will wake up, You tell me that you love me, you plead with me to stay, my refusal makes you angry, a slap is sent my way I run towards my exit, to keep my baby safe, one hit and I could lose her, there is no time to wait I feel the love and sunlight, as I leave my past behind, I close the door of darkness, I see the light of day Today I make my exit, my strength is here to stay, I'm here to live my life, and to live it MY way. |