The Dying Immortal wizard |
Writer’s note: This one is actually an appendage of my (near-finished) epic tale since I seldom write independent poems. Well, you cannot just pluck inspiration out of the weeds in the yard so it is really hard for me to conjure one when I don’t really feel like it. Sometimes I have to borrow someone’s emotion to create one. This type is not actually me genre but I quite enjoyed writing it especially because I am really fond of this particular character mine. (So blame this guy if it turned out to be so cloying. I never expect him to make me write this.) Although this is supposed to be read somewhere in the latter part of the (45-ongoing chapters) novella, I decided to post this one (not considering that the story seems like a year-long to write) because I think it would be fun if some passages appear incomprehensible without the story as a reference. It might be good if the poem itself be veiled with enigma. (Or perhaps, I’m just too idle to type) I will give it my best to display the story. Anyways, a brief description followed. Background to the poem: Alexandros is actually an invincible Wizard who bears the Curse of Immortality. He is known to be the strongest Hunter of the Order under the official name of Helios—The Jack of Diamonds. His real motive is to find the heir of the wizard who alone can lift the curse. Imagine living eternally, un-aging although he is not invulnerable to pain and suffering. He never has any goal except to find his doom. He was feared by men, chased by women, well, except for two. He shut himself to everyone until someone knocked and went straight through. Ignorant of the walls he created. And that was when he was asked to train the Order’s newest Hunter. The song of Alexandros: FORBIDDEN TEMPTATION I always wanted to tell this to you, But I never did, I never can. I’m always tempted to say this to you, But I never did, as if forbidden. But now is different This life is doomed Nothing more can be done If I don’t speak, then it will never be spoken If I refused, then it will be refused forever. You brought dawn in my eternal nights An eastern sun of embracing warmth Steering those thousand years to a delightful sound The real value of life, like a sapphire found Here and then, I chased death Just to find life at its tail. You were sent to a strange land Much to my marvel, you formed a most delicate bond A foreigner in your true home Your world moves, flows, ardent Unlike mine, still, dull and barren Then once again it turned On the same day you came. Once you put my bandages Yes, it tarnished my name As the invincible Hunter of the Order My protest mute in my tongue Then at that moment, you made me dumb. Once you put my bandages An indignant frown curved your face The tormenting cold demeanor You said it’s your job and left. I wanted to hold you back Who cares about such paltry wounds? Inflicted by my usual carelessness Who cares about yards of bandages? This body was dead, moving in curse. I mind the one who put them on The one for whose cause I tread upon If you just stayed, I would have been better. I really wished you did But the courage to ask vanished Scarlet fury dwelled in you I went by myself and spared you. It is not a question of trust It is a matter of safety But I went home dripping in blood Such a trifling casualty Incinerated through this flesh I never gave even a yelp. All I did is to expect you laugh Yet your feet hustled in a rush Your fingers cold and trembling in my cheeks Your austere eyes scornful as they chastised But the pleasant touch, welcoming and nestling Warm and gentle as it always been. Like the moon of its unfading glamour Its light shines in full splendour Rays of hope I thought had shattered Yet before my eyes spark its dazzling lustre How could the song of Muses contend before your peerless comfort can defend? The chagrin in your grimace, sank me the abysmal pit of disgrace My gaze wondered in every corner But a single glimpse of you is nowhere Your silence echoed loudly A hollow sigh occurred to me I dream I hear a tone of gaiety And then, how very unlikely. You drew to me closer Reached up for my face down my neck Probed for a deep fresh wound And dabbed the proper ointment. You brushed the silver wisp of hair Scrupulously, unrelenting, you peered over Your gentle features carved in stone Words struggled in my throat moaned You captured my breath in its delicate tone. You treat me no more than your brother Our distance left me in desperation To resist a forbidden temptation… Then I found myself in daze My eyes throbbed in its festive gaze. My heart caged in my breast Knocked painfully on my chest Then you brought me the desolation To resist a forbidden temptation… You never care to know You never care to notice You never care to hear An undeniable tendency anyone can seer Drifted to me as a misty cloud of crystal clear. I would be fine having none of these Medicines have no use to me Neither provisions nor sleep Nothing is necessary. I never ask for any. Then such words of stark temerity Alarmed you with insolent audacity Your dull eyes blank with expression Spoke to me in a tinge of derision Am I to head death with all my eagerness? I should have told her earlier, she says. That she may stop this nonsense. Finally, she settled and stood before me. Those sapphire irises glinted menacingly My tongue fumbled for the perfect word Nothing came out forged. Lies are of no good to her As she is no good to them. Conversing as you would to a dumb puppet My howling voice locked and shackled. The freezing cold stare, fierce and piercing Darted through and shot across like your voice unwavering Yes, these wounds you healed Yet replaced but a ton of incurable ill I cannot look at you What a shameful thing to do But then I never expect you To move my eyes and gaze at you. Those arched fingers at my chin Intolerant and cruel as they seem Raised my head gently Played me at your whim Your warmth and touch, all unforgiving. My speed is the best Than any Hunter can manifest My reflexes stay unrivaled, unequaled Yet before you I am like a child. Crazed with fear, unable to run. Bound and gagged as I am Its violent claws tugged, yes, the dainty air O well, fair young Sorceress I knew you never meant anything But at this distance, the cruel compulsion O, I abhor to resist the forbidden temptation… The silver plate of light outside shone A trifle delicacy than your finest owned Trapped within your enticing scent Veiled through me like intricate drapes The swirling breeze of windows opened Turned my cheek flushed red. Your merciless gaze never falter The sheer conviction demanding an answer You never knew how deteriorating it feels The abomination of resisting You want me to swear an oath That for a mission intended for us both Shall never be carried by one or another Then at this clause, you leaned on closer. That alluring distance Boiled my blood The unreachable wonderland Of having you in my arms Perhaps the wistful dream is now. The scent of sweet fragrances Your cold tormenting gaze The searing scorching grimace The playful fingers at my chin Prickly sensation in my skin All suddenly released me Impatient sigh flitted in the wind As you stand up and leave. These dull senses ignited with life My mind pulsed its usual sound Then at that moment, These frozen arms reached And caught you by the wrist. I knew how wrong I am I knew how weary you are I should have cared myself But what standard of perfection Would tell you’re wrong When it feels so right? The last stream of that young dainty air Now turned into a wild raging gale The disdainful reprimanding look The opposition which your hand shook The malady of your mocking delight Such mournful sight Sorrowfully added my plight Immediately, you left. How horrible this resplendent night had become My wistful dream sang a forbidden psalm Not to be uttered. Not to be spoken. Turned to a wretched nightmare; all gone. It was then a familiar voice rang in my head A shred of light on me was spared Like a melodious note wafted on my ear A scented breeze washed my fear And wake me up to a new world Just to find the same face Curious and candid Yes, with the same roll of bandages! Wretched was the dream I ought to find, While the enchanted reality came and sang The eternal voice sacred of the moon priestess The sublime mirth glowed on your face Lulled my senses to a rare deep bliss A dying Wizard had long been missed. Yes, the whimsical Sorceress in Nexus’ Tower That one of questionable identity She, who knew a lot about me, Finally I remember now She, who inherited ‘his’ legacy, No more than the Heiress of Rutherford I never thought this inexhaustible time Would be spent for an expensive life Searching for you, I have long been For you, O yes, ever since Then my goal became The Ace of Aces Just to end up with the same Enchantress… This immortality would soon leave me And Hades shall chain my soul in his agony Hail to the most blessed curse, cruel and heavenly Your spell refused to release me But then, I’m glad it did For who would want to leave this earth, Now it gained its meaning? Finally, my end has been written The time has reached my hour. All in me shall be broken now. My memories. My vow— To stay with you ‘til my last Has long been over now. I shall forever depart your side If by the Law of Magicians I am to abide. The time I spent with you Was the best of my endless life From now on, you will be the last remaining Magician alive. A Lunar Sorceress of Rutherford, The Queen of Spades The Ace of Aces My friend and comrade, But most of all, my beloved Yes, my beloved, dear Hazciel. I always wanted to tell this to you, But I never did, I never can. I’m always tempted to say this to you, But I never did, as if forbidden. |