Regret and Rebirth

Tick tock tick... 
The sound of a ticking clock counting the seconds that had passed,
As if it was laughing at me, who was laughing at myself
And still continues to count the remaining time of my life.

The time of my life just passing by,
As if I was someone who is not handy,
Who have wasted the time I have
By not doing anything.

Honestly, I don't understand what I have done so far.
As if I spend most of my life just for a thing,
Things that myself don't even understand,
One thing that left an emptiness inside me.

... Hollow and filled with emptiness.
Somehow, I feel as though ...
The presence of a hole in the bottom of my heart.
A very deep hole, cold, and dark, I knew as "REMORSE".

Well ... a regret that difficult to remove,
However, that's not a reason to give up.
Actually I've tried everything to close that hole.
However, it seems I can't.

As if there will be another me,
I continued my way to eliminating the hole.
It's really pathetic at all ...
And so stupid ...

Okay, I know if I was someone who is very pessimistic.
However, I'm NOT A LOSER!
Maybe I'm just not as good as you,
But do I deserve to be treated like this?

Do I have to do these weird things so that you will respect me?
Honestly, I've HAD it all,
Fed up with all the lies and deceit that I have done.
Fed up with the life I lead now ...

So with the end of the message that I wrote this,
I'll 'go',
Leave all of you and "my old life."
So tomorrow, I will be born again and become "someone new."