My Movie Life.

My life isn't so perfect and neither am i. But then again, no one is. I get my heart broken sometimes and there are times i stay up crying. there are even times that i thin about running away or die. But I always come to my sences. I'm always going to have struggles in life. Everyone is. I just have to be strong enough to live it
Sometimes I compare my life to a movie. It has different genres like romance and others. I feel like im watching my life go by and not really living it.
I am a tenth grader at Maxwell High School. I'm fithteen years old. My first kiss was and is who i really like, Brandon. But he's to busy with his girlfriend. His chunky chinese girlfriend. I mean dont get me wrong, i have nothing against chinese people. It's just when you get jealous you call it as you see it. It's not even of her looks I am jealous of its the fact that she has the boy I always wanted to be with. She gets to see him, hug him and kiss him. She gets to flirt with him and talk to him anytime. I dont even get to talk to him anymore. I'm probably the last person he would ever want to thin of. Ever since he got with her he has forgotten about me. I thought I was special to him, at least thats what he made me think. He used the words "i love you" to me, but I guess it isn't true and never was. I just did the stupid thing and believe it. The pieces we once connected us together has fallen apart. No matter how much I try to put the pieces bac they just wont. But he told me once and I remember this all the time, "Never dwell on the past."
On March eleventh, after school, I went to 169th with Alex and Nicole. I used to be so close to Alex. Now that we have different classes, I'm afraid Nicole and her get too close that I become a third wheel. Nicole is like a sister to me she always knows what to say to make me feel better. Even thought there are times that she shouldn't say anything at all.