Life lessons (nobody's perfect)

I know what they say. Dont waste your time being angry. Dont let people delude you with false feelings that throw you off your game. Well you got me this time. i have been deluded once again. when will I learn? When will this god forsaken heart of mine finally give up on it's search? You laugh. You cry. You smile. You frown. But none of the above come to mind when I think about you. This may be because you arent perfect. This may also may be because your not real. Now you see? My mind is playing games with my heart and i am the rope in a game of tug of war. My head tells me to go one way, but my heart pulls me in a the oppsosite direction. When will I learn?
When.
will.
i.
learn?