What is April?

This is me...reflecting on myself, knowing who I am, but still struggling to explain it ...
Keep in mind...I swear a lot.


April is...

...Small. But not insignificant.(I may not move real mountains but metaphorical ones, hellyeah.)
I'm Strong. But not muscly-strong, HEADstrong, but not JUST in that stubborn sort of way. Ha.
April IS stubborn. But determined-stubborn.

Some say I'm opinionated, and narrow minded. (No, no one says it out loud anyway) But I like to think I'm passionate, and defend my point of view, or cause.
Yes, I like to tell you all about yourself, all about whats right for you. Because people do not always see what is really going on, right in front of them. They don't understand that what they think is right for them, what they think they want, or what they want to believe about a situation ,can be so TERRIBLY wrong. So i point it out. I get very vocal about it . You might say naggy, but I don't think I'm naggy, I'm straight-up with people.

I 'll listen to any argument, ( you know I live for a heated debate lol) but if you can't stand behind what you say with at least a little bit of balls <for lack of a better word lol> then I WILL dismiss your point. Its not that your opinion does not matter to me, its just that if you can't convince yourself, you definitely can't convince me. (Have a backbone. It's fun.)
Does that make me a bitch? AbsoFUCKINGlutely. But I'm not a clueless one. I'm a bitch, but you know I'm right.

So April is ...arrogant?

Maybe a little. I prefer confident, and I guess there IS a very fine line in between the two. I just think that it's easier to see the truth/the right path/the answers, when you're not the one buried to your eyeballs in shit and abuse.
People's naivety is their downfall. You always WANT to see the good in every situation, but you HAVE to prepare yourself for the possibility of any outcome.
April is...cynical? Maybe. I call it prepared.
Others would say I'm paranoid. Fifty thousand proven conspiracy theories can't be wrong. (LOL @ T.)

I'm flexible. Like a willow, lookin all sad and droopy sometimes, but elegant in a storm... I bend, pieces of me might snap off, but I'll never let anyone break me.

April is a mother to all, whether they like it or not. Its me. I like to take care of people. I'm a friend to a lot of people, unwillingly sometimes lol. Being a sarcastic bitch attracts people.Lol. I am an enemy to a few, I'm sure, but even when you hate me...you don't. Because yeah I'm a bitch sometimes but I won't lie to you about it.
I don't have many friends, but I do, if you look at my friends list lol. I know a lot of people. They know of me. Does that mean we're friends? Sure. "Hi, how've you been" friends. It's because I've always kept to myself, and chose to stay on the outside looking in. I like to watch people. I don't like to get too involved with too many people. Fear of intimacy? Fear of failure? Who knows. Everyone needs someone I guess... I am human, and I have flaws, and I need you more than you need me...
...and up until quite recently, no one ever knew that.

April is... just a girl. But the best one she can be.
Do I care if you love me for it?
No.

But part of me still wants you to anyway.