Your love.... Rose

Oh dear,
What would I give to be on your side right now
to leave this nightmare for ever
What would I give to feel your lips
to touch your face and arms
What would I give to be able to follow
this feeling inside me
I can see you face and eyes smilling at me
your arms non-violent, strong and safe
Why am I feeling that?
The first time i hear you calling out my name
It felt like a heavens present
or even more
Every time you look at me, my heart beet so loud
and every time I guess I'll die
Am I just imagining this thing?
This feeling burning deep inside?
I wish I have the guts to tell you
to worte
to whisper you
what I'm feeling evry time you enter the room.
This is ridiculous
Or is it not?
What would I give to left this nightmare behind
I don't feel confortable in my so called familly
It's like if they were all stangers to me
but every time I'm sad I just feel your warm hand on my cold ones
Why on heaven am I feeling that?
It's so confusing
I need you
I need somone who is always by my side
I need a human who is always by my side
If not I'll die of lonelyness
your hair
ton corps chéri
the way you walk
how you go through your hair
It's so amazing
I just can't stop thinking of you all the time
It's like fire
burning, and melting
my heart
It hurts and it feels good all the same
I wish I could be yours
do you feel something for me?
do you think of me like I do right now?
I wish I could be on your side
hold you tight and never let you go
help you if it's neccessary
I wish I could feel your lips
your kisses and hands
wandering on my body
your hands touching my lips
stroking my chest and bust
as if I'm fragile
Your hair caressing my cheek
like soft feather
i can't stop groaning louder and louder
my heart is beating to hell
I'm trembling when I touch you softly
your chest
I want to shout out loud your name "..."
but I have no voice
your kiss is so warm and it is like
an invitation to an unforgetable dream
your lips are stroking my neck
my fingers stoke you hair
they are wet
as if you can stand it anymore
your're trying hard to resist
I'm groaning and groaning
and groaning and groaning
I can stand it anymore
you just keep on kissing me
with sour lips on my breast
you tell me how much you love me and need me
when you suck my nipples
I can feel you
a feeling of being disired by you
it's so wonderfull
this time you are trembling
your pulsating hand open my legs
you lean on me and
look me in the eyes
like if you want to be such that I'm there and that I'm not going away
I'd never go
never
ever
you move in me
it feels like being catched by armors arrows
I feel you deep in me
everything
the sound of your groanings
the smoke of more and more
that comes from your mouth
when you move up and down...and up and down
so slowly and carefully
because you don't want to hurt me
I'm in the highest heaven
butterflies are passing
the moon is shining
the stars are smilling
the flowers are showing their beauty
every part of my body felt it
it's love
our eyes never let eachother
your hands are stroking my bust
and then it happens
we close or eyes to keep that moment
forever
in good and in bad times
hard or not
this experience will alwas be in both of us
then you break down
you're holding me tight
It's over
and i know your mine!
Oh dear
What would I give to feel that
everything
but I can't
I have to let you go
my dear love