Dear Daddy

"Daddy, Daddy, please don't drink!"

These words I would say.
The same old phrase, day after day.
"Is the reason you drink because of me?
Have I not become what you want me to be?"

Sometimes I feel guilty.  I don't even know why...
There is a sadness inside me; I feel I must cry.
I let no one close. I feel so ashamed.
If they knew my secret, they would not feel that same.

I don't believe Daddy I was even a child.
I don't even think I learned how to smile.
I can't hide this hurt that is deep inside.
This anger lives on even after you have died.

I have hidden my feelings for so very long,
I fear I can't find them, they have already gone.
It's hard to have feelings, I am afraid they are wrong.
It is easier to hide them and pretend I am strong.

My precious Lord, make this pain go away.
These are the words I pray every day;
To love you and forgive you I desparately ask,
Before my life here becomes part of the past...