Haunting Memories

Memories, why is it we always forget things, and moments went want to last forever, and we remember all the things we wish we could forget?  Why do our memories haunt us so? Even the good memories we have haunt us, because they remind us of what once was but isn’t anymore. Can’t we train our minds to remember only the things we want to remember and blackout all the rest? And why can’t I stop caring about things, and people, I’m tired of caring about? Why can’t I just stop?
         I believe I’ll lose my mind completely if this continues. Oh, the strange ways of the heart, it’s a mystery, to me, to everyone I’m sure. Actually come of think of it I’m almost positive no one knows all the ways of the heart. Doctors may know how it works and how to replace it if it stops working. But no one really understands the complexity of the emotions the hearts puts out. No one knows except He who created it, the creator of mankind the creator of the universe, our heavenly Father.
Let’s imagine for a second that we could control our hearts completely. Now sure we do have a lot of control already but not complete control. Imagine if you could tell your heart to stop loving, to stop caring, or even to stop beating entirely. Would that make your life better? I don’t know that it would. But I wish I had more control of my feelings, after all they do belong to me. Why shouldn’t I get to control them? It just isn’t fair. My emotions seem to ne changing with the weather, when its warmer outside I’m happier than when it is 5 degrees out. But that’s probably because I hate cold weather.