The Things I’ve Lost

Today is his day
I tossed and turned all night,
I cried and blamed myself.

I remembered all the things I’ll never have again,
His arms holding me tight.
His voice whispering in my ear.
His eyes looking at me with adoration.

I’ll never have his arms to hold me when I’m down,
When I need reassurance,
When I just need loving arms to love me.

I’ll never hear his sweet voice whispering in my ear,
He’ll never tell me how much he loves me,
I won’t hear him encouraging me,
Telling me I’ll be O Kay,
Reminding me everything will be fine in the end.

I’ll never feel his gaze fall upon me with unrelenting love,
His eyes will never look at me again with understanding,
His eyes will never be the same.

I miss him so and I probably always will
But he’ll always be far away
And here I’ll stay waiting for all those things I can never have again.