what i need |
Little Altars I used to take off my shoes and walk down the aisle to the altar when no one was there and I would lay down my head look at the cross and talk I need that thing that takes it all away that goes above takes me beyond let me breathe let me be nothing, anything And I would walk past the trees, the barn, the fields, watch the seasons come and go know that so much remained in the face of a world that changed I need that thing that roots me that connects me and runs deep echoes peace and perseverance holds steady I used to light candles burn incense play music lock my door lay on the floor write I need that thing to push me over the accepted dare me to be honest form opinion based on no one I used to spend so many days barely sleeping busy being someone somewhere I need that thing to look forward to people that complement challenge accept and include to be part of something I want I like and laugh and feel like a really good version of myself I would sit barefoot open senses knowing things I couldn’t see I need that thing to believe and imagine and create I need to find that thing I need to get to that place At one time I would look in the mirror utter minor criticisms but overall know me and like what I see I need that thing that makes me walk sure like I know where I’m going who I am what I’m for Little altars I let go or had to leave they’re what I need. |